WDYS – Sea of Darkness

It is happening again

I feel the darkness sink in

Everything is murky

Out of focus

And so far out of reach

Then the air starts to leave me

I can’t take a breath

The water will drown me

It feels like impending death

One last time I burst upwards

Towards the light of hope

Reaching for your hand

Hoping you can find me

In this sea of fears

Where I feel myself

Drowning too often

Hoping your hand will guide me

Towards the comfort of shore

And your waiting friendship

Where I don’t feel so alone anymore


Written for Sadje’s prompt What Do You See (WDYS) #147

Nightfall’s Lament

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As the day wears out

And night does shroud the sky

She sits in her father’s chair

And softly starts to cry

Remembering the life he led

The excitement and the dangers

His service to his country and his city

His kindness to many strangers

He was really well respected

And was liked in many towns

But the darkness makes her maudlin

And the emptiness brings her down

Left behind with only memories

Echoes of laughter from the past

She hopes for some relief

But it never seems to last

Just a longing of a special time

Before both her parents were gone

Now she suffers alone each night

And the pain just lingers on

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – maudlin

Safety Net

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I feel like disaster is waiting

Hiding around the corner

One thing after another

Keeps going wrong

And you are still not here

Not where I can see you

Not near enough to touch

Not within my senses at all

I am trying to be strong

And weather this awful storm

But I would feel much safer

Wrapped up in your arms

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – disaster

Verified Indifference

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“It is over.”

Was what she had said

He was indifferent

And that sealed the deal

She had made the right decision

His cavalier response

To her goodbye

Was just more evidence

Of his lack of caring

When he was no longer

Willing to fight

For what they had

She knew on her own

Was where she should be

No matter how frightening

That looming loneliness seemed

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – cavalier

Fandango’s Friday Flashback – January 3

I am glad to be able to have caught up enough to sneak this post in today.  I have missed doing these FFFs.  This week we go back to January 3rd, 2017  with a post that was originally here.



When the silence hits

It cuts to the bone.


There are no more angry words

No more tears

No more smiles

No more laughter

No more moments of tenderness


…just utter silence






Since you’ve been


No Sound But My Tears

My reserve energy is spent

I want to curl up in a ball

To ignore the deep pain

Shut out the world

And settle into my loneliness

Because no one notices anyway

And I’m so tired of being used

So goodbye for the rest of the day

I locked myself inside of

The consuming solitude


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – reserve

A Beam of Light in a Darkened Existence

She felt alone so much of the time

Ignored by those who said they cared

She sat in the dark replaying another day

A day trapped behind four walls

But then a voice from her past

Came back to her briefly

A series of texts from an old friend

Brought back the sound of his voice

And some feelings that had never left

Overjoyed by the thought of seeing him

The thoughts broke through her darkened night

Giving her hope for a connection

A way out of this choking loneliness

If only for a few hours


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – overjoyed

Happy and Grateful – Day 312

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

Today was ok.  I am struggling some tonight.  Thinking of what-ifs and might-have-beens.  Missing my best friend something fierce.  Feeling out of control.  But there was good in the day.  I took my Dad to his coffee group this afternoon and it always makes me happy to see him laughing and talking with his friends.

Tonight I was grateful we had some left-overs we could just heat up to have for dinner and it didn’t require a lot of work.  I was not up to cooking and neither was my boyfriend.  So it was a search through the fridge to find a little of this and a little of that.  It may not have been gourmet, but it was good.

That is about all I have for tonight.  I am going to try to sleep early so tomorrow I can get up and do a little reading in my workbook before I head to my therapist visit for the week.  I hope you remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 279

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

It was a grey gloomy rainy day.  I am aching with the cooler temperatures.  But we have needed the rain for so long.  I did go out in the rain to meet my daughter for lunch and go to the post office and then get Dad his dinner.  I was grateful I didn’t have to drive through the heaviest of the rain.  This system is supposed to give us quite a bit of rain.  Maybe the grass can green back up before it gets hit by the first frost.

I have had a pretty quiet night.  My boyfriend and I watched a couple of things off our DVR.  Now he is sleeping and I am alone watching a movie I have seem many times before, Overboard.  This is the time of night I really dread.  Being alone and “isolated” especially when I may be tired, the depression flourishes.  So I write.

Tonight I wrote a little to my doctor and think I will start a letter to a friend.  The words help keep me somewhat grounded.  I feel a little less alone.  I feel a little less worthless.  So I keep clicking at the keyboard to mask the emptiness.  I am happy I have the words to get me through.  And I know there are some of you out there who read and relate and that makes it worth it.

I will stop for the night.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day.