You said hello, I was intrigued. You said you wanted to help, I was taken in. You said you’d be there, Was that a lie? You said you cared, Was it all an elaborate trick? You said you were sorry, Did you even mean it? You said goodbye, Maybe it was a blessing in disguise.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – trick
“Don’t rely on me. I told you I am not reliable.” He got into his car, slammed the door shut and was gone. I stood there feeling disappointed, unwanted and small. He had said just a short time ago that he would be there for me if I needed him… I need him. I need someone to acknowledge that I am still a living being with worth. And now he is changing his tune and making me feel like it is my own fault, that I never should have trusted him. I feel so abandoned by someone I thought was a friend. Maybe he will come around again.
That was nearly 10 years ago and I still think of him to this day. He stepped into my life at a desperate time for me. He stood by when I found out my Mom had died. He gave me his cat. I still text him on his birthday… he never texts back anymore. I still long for that friendship, it was one of the most honest ones I had ever had I thought. But reality says I will likely never see him again, and that breaks my heart all over again.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – rely