The Flame

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I looked up the road and sighed, I saw nothing that looked familiar.  I slowed down, pulled into the nearest parking lot, and picked up my phone.  It had been eight years since I had been here in this town and things sure had changed.

I studied the map for a few minutes to get oriented in the right direction to make it to the restaurant in time for my lunch date.  I had not seen Kurt for quite some time, and I did not want to arrive late.  I was really hoping this might be a chance to rekindle what we had once had.

Confident I had the location locked into my head I took off with memories of happier times in my head.  I found the restaurant with 4 minutes to spare.  I took a deep breath and headed towards the door.  If I had only known what Kurt was going to say I never would have taken that walk into The Flame of Flavor.

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – orientation

Stressed Spelled Backwards

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She walked into the restaurant looking for her friends; they always met once a month.  They had all worked together and had developed a strong bond.  Pam glanced left then right, and her eyes caught a glimpse of the dessert case.  So many scrumptious desserts waiting to be chosen.  There was cheesecake, tiramisu, a decadent looking chocolate cake, scones, pie and crème brulee.  It all looked so good.  Suddenly there was a tap on her shoulder, turning around she saw Betty and Andrea; she had beat them there.  After welcoming hugs, they sat down and studied the dessert menu first.

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – scrumptious

No Idea

(Sorry this one is a bit weird as it was 2am and I was needing to sleep LOL!)

I’ve got a notion
You caused a commotion
Down by the ocean
When you put on your lotion
I’ve got a feeling
You sent boys reeling
When you were kneeling
And praying for healing
I’ve got a hunch
Your special lunch
Made the boys munch
And eat a bunch
I’ve got an idea
Nothing rhymes with idea
Unless your idea
Is to shop at ikea


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – commotion

Happy and Grateful – Day 311

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

Today was laundry day… got three loads done.  Two of them were for my daughter.  Now my shoulders are feeling the work of the day tonight, so I will take my muscle relaxers and hope to sleep easy.  At least the majority of it is done.  I have one, maybe two more loads to wash.  I am grateful I was able to get them done.

I did meet my daughter today for a late lunch.  It was the first time in quite a long time we were actually able to sit down and talk much.  She has been putting in overtime at work for about a month now.  The money is nice, but it does not give her much free time.  It really made me happy to talk to her today.

Now I am already getting droopy eyelids so I should get this posted.  Going to be a busy day tomorrow too with the clinic and coffee both for Dad.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 297 & 298

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

I apologize for not getting my posts on last night, fatigue caught me early and unaware.  I woke up about 4:30 in the morning lights still on and laptop open on my lap still.  Lets hope I can post this without falling asleep first.

Yesterday I got to meet with a friend I used to work with and have lunch with her.  We talked for a couple of hours… it made me happy to visit with her.  And I was grateful she wanted to treat me to a late birthday lunch and picked up the tab.

Today was a worrisome day. My boyfriend was home from work because he didn’t feel well when he woke up for work.  But I had to take my Dad to the clinic and then to his Wednesday coffee group so I worried about him while I was gone.  When I got back home he was feeling a bit better so I was grateful for that.

I spent the evening playing phone tag with my daughter.  First she was busy, then I was busy, but we finally connected and talked a little bit and that made me happy.

Now I must find sleep… before it finds me.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/ day!


(Oh man, I had it all written and just needed to put tags on it and send it out into the blogging world… so close.  Oh well, please forgive me again!)

Happy and Grateful – Day 216

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

Another day with the windows open.  The birds in the morning, the crickets at night… I love it.  My allergies don’t love it so much and I had the sinus headache to prove it, but some things are just worth it.

Going to be short and to the point tonight as I did not sleep well last night and I want to get this done before I fall asleep tonight.  My happy for the day was meeting up with a couple of friends I used to work with for lunch.  We had a little over a two-hour lunch and had a good time… I even had a couple of genuine laughs.  Those have been hard to come by lately.

My moment of gratitude came shortly after I made it to lunch.  One of my friends, knowing how much we have been struggling lately gave me a little money.  This means I can fill the gas tank back up again and my boyfriend will not need to find another way to get to work.  I dream of a day when I can help her out somehow.

Now I must close my eyes and get some rest.  I hope you have a good night/day.  Stay happy and grateful!

Happy and Grateful – Day 182

July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.

Happy July everyone!  Around here you would swear we skipped a few day straight to the Fourth of July… they have been spending a lot of money on fireworks around us.  It is kind of funny too and the apartment management put a flier on everyone’s door reminding us of rules including the city ordinance against shooting off fireworks.  Maybe they haven’t been home after work yet today?

Aside from being on edge from the steady mini explosions out my window… today was alright.  No heavy humidity today, it was still pretty warm though.

I picked up my boyfriend after work and we stocked up on some groceries.  Saved about $17 with coupons and specials.  Then used our Fuel Saver to fill the car up and saved another $11.  It always make me happy to save money like that.

I got an email from a friend and we made some plans to have lunch together next week.  Now I have something to look forward to, so I am grateful for that.

Not working well with my muse tonight – she can be pretty difficult when she chooses.  Well that and a case of fibro fog can do me in.  So I will bid you all a good night and hope your July started out with a happy BANG!

Happy and Grateful – Day 160

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

Today was the first of many days of temps in the 90s.  The humidity wasn’t bad today, but it is supposed to rise starting tomorrow.  It was still too hot for me to do much.  I did however meet to friends I used to work with and had a nice lunch.  It was really good for me to get out.  I have been way too stressed lately and it is starting to really take its toll on my physically.  I hurt so bad tonight I took a pain pill as soon as I got home from my Dads tonight.

Three years ago I started a process that I knew would take a long time and be hard but still necessary.  I filed for disability with my depression, anxiety and fibromyalgia after being on a year-long medical leave of absence trying to find doctors and treatments worth a darn.  I had a lawyer, went through the paper work to file, got denied, appealed, got denied, appealed, went before a judge, got denied, appealed and just now(almost a full year since we filed the appeal) was again denied.

I did not just get denied though this time, my lawyer said they would no longer pursue the case with me and dropped me as a client.  So here I am with 60 days to file my last appeal and no lawyer.  I was devastated.  I have taken more anxiety pills this week than I have in the past two months!  Today I made phone calls and left messages all over town trying to find a new lawyer who would stand behind me and the 4 doctors I see on a regular basis.  Of course I wont hear anything until next week, but I am hoping at least one of them will be caring and strong enough to get the job done.

I am in a little better place than I was last night thankfully.  Not the dark thoughts roaming the halls of my brain, just tired (side effect of the pain pills and anxiety meds) and lost.  I know this post is going all over again tonight as I try to keep one train of thought on track at a time.  But I know I am still not there and I apologize again for that.

My happy moment had to be spending the couple of hours at lunch with my friends… I really NEEDED that.  And I am grateful for the good old-fashioned yellow pages to track down some more lawyers who I hope can help me.  If not I have to start over from scratch and try again… it is a LONG three-year battle though.  I hope the fact I have passed the age threshold of 50 now makes a difference and will be something to help my case.

I just have felt like I was dropped in the middle of a big city with no phone, no maps, only paperwork to get to a destination I know nothing about…. it is scary as hell!

Going to let the pain meds take over now and get some sleep I hope.  Once again I am sorry for my rambles.  Maybe I can find a way to take the weekend off from worrying since I wont hear anything until next Monday at the earliest.  Here’s hoping!  Good night my friends!

Happy and Grateful – Day 90

As March comes to an end I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day.  There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for.  Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog.  Be aware of the little wonders of the day!

Today was a good day… I got the chance to see a friend of mine for a lunch date.  Originally there was going to be three of us but our other friend got sick and had to cancel.  But the two of us had a nice little lunch at Village Inn and talked for a couple of hours.  It is always good to connect with friends… it makes me happy!

As for the grateful part of the day… I have to turn to you, my followers.  I hit the 200 mark today and am humbled that you want to keep up with what I do.  I will try to do my best to make your time worth while.  THANK YOU to each and every one of you!  (((HUGS)))

Happy and Grateful – Day 32

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

Today was a pretty constant on the go day.  My daughter called with a last-minute request to go out for lunch together so I threw myself together and picked her up at her apartment so we could head to Perkins.  It is always such a joy for me to see her, and an unexpected chance to visit is always nice.  But we could not relax too long as I had to take my Dad to an appointment.  Then off to the pharmacy to pick up some meds.  Home for about an hour and a half.  Back to my Dad’s to fix him dinner.  Back to the store for cold medicine as my boyfriend came home not feeling well.  And finally home for the night.  Phew!

I am hoping all that running will help me sleep good tonight.  But right now I am still kind of wired from the on the go day.  But I am happy I was able to squeeze in time with my daughter.  And once again I find myself grateful to be able to help my Dad out after all he has done for me growing up.  I feel pretty lucky to have him as a Dad and feel no shame in saying I love him every day.  He may be my hero but he is not immortal and I treasure every day I can have with him still.