I took a walk through my mind To see what was taking up space Memories both good and bad Were scattered all about I found scenes from my childhood Encountered some old friends Watched my daughter being born again Picked up a forgotten dream or two And when I had seen enough I wiped away the tears Because there really is no going back To try it one more time Besides I can’t relive the pain Of losing you again
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – encounter
I have almost every ticket stub from every concert I have been to. I have always thought I would do something clever with them, but the idea has just never struck. I also have a handful of stuffed animals, some drawings and school pictures from my youth. They really don’t mean a lot to anyone but me. I would like to think someday when I am gone, they might bring a smile to my daughter’s face as some of my Mom and Dad’s keepsakes have done to me and my sister. I think all of us have a certain number of things we keep besides pictures that take us back to yesterday. From autograph books and old poems, I wrote, from baby blankets to dolls; there are memories all around me. Some of them I kept, and some my parents kept for me. But almost all will bring a smile … well maybe a few will bring a groan. I am grateful for my keepsakes.
Today has been a challenging day. This would have been my Dad’s 84th birthday. He has been gone almost a year now and I miss him so much. Tonight, my boyfriend and I played a few games of cribbage. Dad taught me how to play. I think that is one of the things I miss most about him. We would play cribbage, scrabble, do jigsaw puzzles and trivia games. It is that and some of the most basic things I miss. I haven’t done if for like 40 years, but I remember as a kid getting his coffee ready in his thermos every night before he went to work on the grave-yard shift.
Simple everyday things can bring back floods of memories. One of the things I miss a lot is how he would raise one eyebrow at you in question of what you just said or did. He would shake hands with someone, and I could see the tightness of his grip whenever he did so… he had big strong hands.
But it is not just Dad I am missing tonight; I miss my Mom too. She has been gone longer and it still hurts as bad. Tonight’s prompt I am writing for triggered a flood of memories about Mom. I have had long hair most of my life. And when I was growing up, I can remember many a day sitting still (or trying to) while Mom would brush my hair to get all the rats out. I would often beg her to stop when my hair was a particular mess, but now I would give anything to have her brush my hair once more.
I never knew how badly it would hurt to be without my parents. I fear I took for granted the time I had with them. But I do little things like the cribbage games tonight, to try to keep the happy times fresh in my mind. Have you ever lost someone you were close with and felt you should have spent more time with them?
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – brush
About a million years ago… ok, more like two weeks, I was tagged by Sadje for this New Years Tag. I am slow but I finally got around to answering it. Let’s start with the rules…
Share a link back to the person who tagged you – Sadje
Share a link to the person who created the tag – jesusluvsall
Share a favorite New Year’s memory.
Answer the questions of the person who tagged you.
Tag whoever you want.
Use any picture that you like for New Year’s.
One of my favorite New Year’s memory is when we traveled to see my family in Omaha over the holidays one year. My uncle knew of a bar having a New Year’s bash and thought it would be fun if we all went. So it was me and my sister, Mom and Dad, my Aunt and Uncle and my other Uncle… we all got there and were given teardrop stickers to put on our cheeks. The band playing was called Cry Baby, so that explained the stickers. I remember dancing and laughing and seeing everyone else so happy. It wasn’t long after that when my Mom got sick and we never had another New Year’s like that again. And I was pretty young and totally crushing on the guitar player, although I don’t remember his name. Forever known as the Cry Baby New Year.
Now the questions….
1.If you could celebrate New Year’s anywhere, where would it be.
I would really like to have a New Years party at home with family and games until midnight.
2.What is your favorite snack food for New Year’s?
Can’t go wrong with the classic chips and dip… but I also love a good veggie tray with dip.
3.Have you ever kept a New Year’s resolution? If so, what was it?
Can’t say that I have ever kept one, so I stopped making them years ago.
4.What do you want to do with your blog next year?
Pretty much the same I have been doing… if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.
5.Do you prefer a big party or a small gathering to celebrate?
A small gathering for sure. If they can’t all sit down in my living room at the same time, it is too big a group. We can comfortably seat 7 max.
And this is when I am supposed to tag others, but it is so late in getting this done I will just allow anyone who wants to share to feel free to do so.