Never Healing

The feeling is the same –

My heart has been ripped out.

I didn’t think I would ever again

Feel a duplicate hurt like that.

It had been different every other time

Coworkers, friends, family…

But I grew closer to him

Right towards the end.

And I did NOT want him to go!

The pain of losing your parents

Is like no other.

9 years now she has been gone

And almost 8 months now for him.

And I still want to talk to them

Every single day,

And it rips that wound back open.


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – duplicate

After All These Years

The old woman sat on a bench
Near a worn headstone
She held a single flower
And looked so forlorn
She gently placed the bloom
Onto the ground before her
And wiping away a tear
She softly said
“I still miss you, Dad.”


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – forlorn

Happy and Grateful – Day 313

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

It was a cold day today.  Right around the freezing point most of the day with a cold wind blowing.  A good day to stay inside.  And that is what I did for most of the day.  I fought fatigue a good portion of the day and succumbed to two naps.  But I was grateful to have a day with not much planned where I could take the naps.

I was feeling a little better than I was last night, but still missing my friend.  It is getting close to the holidays and at one time he was going to be here for the holidays, but that changed and I wish I could see him again.  I worry I never will see him in person again.  As he will not be coming back here and I don’t have the money or energy to travel.  I am glad we still keep in touch somewhat through phone and texts.

Tonight’s happy moment … I have a hard time with this one tonight.  I am going to go with one I don’t know if I have used before or not.  With the upcoming winter they are talking about the homeless and the coming cold…. I am happy to have a roof over my head and I can afford the heat to stay warm.  Having known someone who was homeless for a while I know circumstances can come up and it all can vanish too easily.

Now I am going to finish watching the end of the musical Chicago and hope to get to sleep soon after.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day.

I Pause

I turn to tell you about a fleeting thought

And I pause

Forgetting for a moment you’re gone


I hear a song on the radio you used to sing to

And I pause

Catching the lump in my throat


I see your picture

And I pause

Then let the tears flow


I pause to remember

I pause to forget

I pause for acceptance

I pause for love


I hear your voice

And I pause

Glad I hit the save button

Wishing I could have saved you…