the first five minutes
are always the worst
murders, fires, death and destruction
the weather and sports are ok
but the fluff pieces
are always towards the end
the human interest stories
that give us a little hope
that mankind still has kindness
yeah I think I will watch
the last half of the news
the first half I can’t handle today
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – news
Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year. August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity. It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it. As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too. You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog. There is good in every day!
Another day… another afternoon with Special Reports from the news desk breaking into programming on television, news updates on Facebook and radio DJ’s talking of more hate in the world. My anxiety and depression make it hard to watch the news. Being a compassionate human makes it hard to watch the news. So I stepped a little out of my norm for the daily prompt post I made for unfurl (A New Flag). I find it so discouraging to see how little value people put in human lives… unless they are ____(fill in the blank).
To try to counter all that, I find myself listening to music tonight. Trying to find answers to why. I saw my therapist this afternoon and talked a little about the news of the week. And I know he is right in saying there are more good people than bad in the world… some weeks it is hard to believe it though. So I sit here and try to find music that gives me hope. Try to write out the words of hurt and pain. Grateful my friends and family are all safe tonight… and saying a prayer for those who aren’t.
I had a moment today of happiness when I shared some time with my Dad. He seemed in a better mood tonight than he has been and we had a nice talk while I fixed him dinner and he ate it. With him at 81 I worry those talks will not be available much longer.
I am going to try to read some more posts before it gets too late. Stress can wear me out and it has been a stressful day with the newscasts. Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude. Have a good night/day!
I don’t want to talk about the election… but it is the stress from it that has brought me my moment of happiness today. I have been on edge all day. I did an absentee ballot so I did not have to wait in a line to vote. I just had to sit back and wait for the news. That is where the stress is building… it is being agonizingly slow. I have taken an anxiety pill but still feel very anxious. So is my daughter. We have been chatting back and forth trying to keep each other from being too worked up. I actually even laughed when she sent a gif that joked about the red and blue states. I love my daughter so much and want to do everything I can do to protect her, and I feel like I have let her down somehow tonight. I don’t know if any of this is making sense… the news coverage does not seem to make sense so maybe it fits. Maybe it is my anxiety meds? Maybe it is the late hour? All I know is that I would not have made it through this night without the chats with my daughter. She put a good spin on things a couple of times to give me a little boost through the night. Democracy has been done and I hope the nation can begin to heal… we must pull together as one. God bless the USA.