Happy and Grateful – Day 295

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

Had a rough day with my depression.  I did however feel a little less “alone” this evening when I found a program on public television called “It is ‘Just’ Anxiety” obviously about anxiety.  It had about 5 or 6 different people dealing with different forms of anxiety and talking about how they felt.  It was like it was my life a couple of them were talking about.  The show made me cry more than once.  But it also showed these people were doing things to get better and that gave me a little hope that some day my anxiety may be further back in my mind.  So even though it made me cry it made me happy in other ways, mainly I am not the only one who feels this way.

I was grateful to have my computer tonight to help me write out some of my bad thoughts.  I wrote to my doctor and did some poetry.  I tried real hard to make something upbeat for the word prompt of the day.  But no matter how I started out, it always turned the corner back to negative so I decided not to fight it finally.  Not a great poem, but it is where my head was at.

I need to close my laptop and my eyes and hopefully find a little peace in my sleep.  I will do all I can to try to be a little more positive tomorrow.  I just take it minute by minute if I have to.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day.