Tag: pain

Warning, This Is Not a Drill

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It  comes in quietly

Without any warning

All will be well

Then WHAM it hits

This debilitating disease

It’s unrelenting pain

And the chronic fatigue

Strikes any time of day

A flare sends my limping

To the medicine cabinet

I can barely stay awake

And my minds focus

Bounces around in circles

I feel like it’s me against the world

As I struggle to explain

Another appointment to cancel

Because I just can’t move

Or fear I will sleep driving

And loneliness closes in

Twisting my thoughts

Well I am warning you fibro

I will not let you win today

I may surrender to the symptoms

But I will never give up

Living the best life I can

*****

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – warning

You Saved The Day

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Today again I needed help

But was afraid to turn to you

Same old story of pain and sadness

Chilled me to the bone

Why should I burden you

With what I can’t control

I fought the day all by myself

As I so often do

Closing off all contact

And let my problems stew

Then when I felt I wasn’t a threat

I finally reached out to you

Your words fit like a warm embrace

They left me with new hope

I never should have doubted you

You really lift me up

Now once again I feel my dreams

Might one day have a chance

*****

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – embrace

Lingering Pain

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He stands at a distance

Lots of space between you

But he might as well have been

Close enough to touch you

Because you felt the sting

Of a verbal belt to the skin

His words like hot fire

Burning deep within

He probably doesn’t even know

How sharp the words were

Retreating into the night

You just mumble yes sir

So you stay in the shadows

and treat your wounded pride

with a bit of self healing

and your time you do bide

when you begin to feel safe

and can walk tall again

you will be out of the glare

of his wicked loathsome grin

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – belt

That’s The Spot

There is a spot on my heart

I can feel it throb sharply

Whenever you’re near

And I don’t know if I can take it

When you smile and look at me

With those wonderful blue eyes

That spot it does remind me

Of pain from the past

But holds hope for the future too

I guess for now I will endure

And wonder what is going on

Behind your blue eyes

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – spot

Searching for Change

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I am stuck

In a world fraught

With pain and bad thoughts

The only way out

I see is through you

Through change and acceptance

Expression of feelings

That leave behind no doubts

Until then I am drowning

In a glut of despair

Waiting for something

To take me from here

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – glut

Record With a Skip

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I am not a stranger to troubles, and I am far from impervious to pain.  I sit here on a higher pain day glad my feet have stopped “burning” finally.  I took one of my pain pills and massaged my feet a while… something finally helped.  I have clouded thoughts of emptiness after two really fun weekends with a visiting friend so now when she is gone back home, I feel pretty empty again.

I am still working on catching up… I know I sound like a broken record, record, record.  But I am really trying.  I have been busy with therapy and doctor visits.  Now my cat is going to the vet for tests.  And there are the usual trips to the store a couple of times a week.  With the heat of summer, I am just wiped out!

So just to touch base I am still at it.  If I get a couple of posts in a day, I will feel good about gaining a little ground. If I don’t, I will hope to at least get one done to not lose any ground.  Maybe by next weekend I will be updating less than a week behind instead of more.  But it is what it is…

I hope everyone has a good week and happy blogging!  (((HUGS)))

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – impervious

Set Me Free

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Remove the sand within my eyes

Take the knives out of my back

I need to stop walking this broken glass

Both calves are tied in knots

I struggle to raise my arms

And my neck is stiff at best

This fibro flare has me in pain

And my mind all out of whack

As I struggle to write these words

I catch my breath in gasps

I hope the end of this flare is soon

I want to feel happiness again

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – remove

I Don’t Want To See

I wish I could take a picture of the past

Snap it out of focus and blurred

The memories are too painful

I want to find the silver lining

Of the dark clouds that I had

Only one thing I can hope for

That time will blur the things I recall

And eventually the pain will fade

Written for Fandango’s One Word Challenge (FOWC) – blur

Return the Favor

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I can see her cry

And it breaks my heart

I see him struggle

And I want to help

I know they are in trouble

And I want to save them

***

So many of the people I love

Are caught in times of trouble

Cancer, death, pain, and homelessness

I am sympathetic to all

And so deeply sad as there is little I can do

To ease their pain and sorrow

***

I try to lend an ear

I will listen to all they say

I lend a shoulder and tissue

To collect all of their tears

I want to be there for them

As they have been there for me

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – sympathetic

Too Much of a Bad Thing

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Is there really

Such malice in your heart

That you would

Turn you back on me

When I was knocked down

Is there really

Such trauma in your life

That you squirm

When someone sees the facts

That you are not perfect

Is there really

Such pain in your past

That you can’t

Open one door

And let a friend inside

… it was such a waste of my time

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – such