Depression Suppression

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I want to thrive

But I barely survive

I wish and hope

And barely cope

Moments of happiness

Compete with sadness

I feel so alone

In pain I moan

The nights are long

My thoughts all wrong

Maybe by mornings light

I will find some inner fight

Until I find some bliss

Living life I will miss

As I hide away in fear

I wipe away another tear


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – survive

In Need

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A tortured soul

Restless and weak

In need of someone

To remove my demons

A broken heart

Faint and slowing

In need of someone

To make it beat

A life of solitude

Afraid and lonely

In need of someone

To just hold my hand

A tortured soul

A broken heart

A life of solitude

All in need of

You


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – torture fivedotoh.com/2020/06/16/fowc-with-fandango-torture/

No Matter What Song

With a twist of the dial

The station comes in

And I begin to sway

Music swirls around me

As I turn up the radio

Dancing through my head

It erases my troubles

So I can find peace within

In spite of my pain today


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – twist https://fivedotoh.com/2020/06/10/fowc-with-fandango-twist/

Fandango’s Friday Flashback – May 8th

The time has come again for a look back a year or more ago on what was posted on the 8th of May.  I have chosen to revisit May 8th of 2017.  It was a poem written for the daily prompt of exposed.  I hope you enjoy it and why not post your our past work and link back to FFF.

Betrayal

exposed my heart

Bared vulnerabilities

Only for your soul

 

You left me exposed

And shared with the world my pain

Leaving me naked

 

You didn’t care then

Don’t tell me that you care now

I’m exposed and raw

I Miss You Mom

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She left peacefully

Silently in the night

When I heard the news

I was instantly

Inundated with memories

And questions I could never ask

I felt numb and had

The worst pain I’ve ever had

All at the same time

It has been nearly ten years

And every bit of pain is still there

I wonder will it ever go away

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – inundated

Customer Service Please

Can I turn my life in

Can I get an exchange

Something more my size

Something easier to handle

I have felt so lost

I have dealt with pain

Now I want peace of mind

Now I wish for happiness

Please let me trade in

Please let me start over

I am so tired in this life

I am sick of being used

Can I please turn in my life

Can I please get an exchange

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – exchange

The Final Drink

He has become unhinged

After another all-night binge

He is consumed by the fire

Of alcohol’s desire

Yet wait for a while

He has now lost his smile

He will weep in the night

Over his current plight

He cannot control it

The pain has hit

Next his breath will slow

And he will somehow know

His life is not his to own

The sickness has grown

And it will take him tonight

His family seeing the light

That went out in him

The night turns grim

Sleep dear loved one

The pain is now done

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – unhinged

Words Like A Knife

I sit here quietly

While you talk

I feel like a school girl

Sent to the principal’s office

You inflict your pain

A word at a time

Warping my mind

Making me feel worthless

I did this wrong

I did that wrong

I am the reason

For everything bad

But I won’t hear it anymore

I stand up and move to the door

And hold it open

For you to leave

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – inflict

Dull and Dreary

She used to shine

She used to laugh

Now she barely glimmers

She has a vapid existence

Lost and alone in the shadows

Afraid to live

Afraid any joy

Will be taken away

Like it has been in the past

She is just too tired

And in too much pain

To try again

And so she sits and waits

For it all to end

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – vapid

Still

I take a deep breath

And think of the past

There was pain I endured

For year after year

But now that threat

Is gone from my life

And I face tomorrow

With renewed hope

But there is still

A wistfulness there

For there are days

That still shine through

With true happiness

And for those days

I still deeply mourn

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – threat