Haunted

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They swarm around me unseen

Some to protect

Some to just watch

Some to never let me forget

The ghosts of my past

Are always with me

Those who have died

Those whose memory is strong

And those who still torture my soul

I have never seen them

But I can feel they are there

And will always be a part of me

They helped me become

Who I am today

And I welcome them

And their energies

Always beside me

Haunting echoes of my past

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Do you have ghosts you are thankful for? We always carry those with us who have touched our lives for good or bad. Don’t let them scare you.

Apology

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If I say I’m sorry

Will it take the hurt away

If I make amends

For all I have done

Will it change the past

If I sincerely apologize

For the choices I made

And where we ended up

Would you still be here today

If I said it once

I said it a million times

I am sorry

But you had your chances


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – apology


I apologize for being absent for so long… life has been, well life and one thing after another has kept me away. Things are looking pretty good though and I am back at it, trying to catch up. Hope you are all well! (((HUGS)))

A to Z Challenge – T is for Thurber

“Let us not look back in anger, nor forward in fear, but around in awareness.”

James Thurber

I saw a post once that said dwelling in the past was depression and always looking ahead was anxiety but enjoying the moment brought peace. Having both I can see the correlation. Take the time to be in the now and find all the good it has to give.

Past letters …

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S

Remember?

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Do you remember me?

I can’t forget you.

Do you ever wish it had been different?

I do all the time.

Do you have an urge to communicate with me?

I want to talk to you almost daily.

Do you regret our past?

It is impossible for me to.

Do you still care a little?

It is unfathomable that I could ever stop caring.

Do you remember me?

I will never forget you.


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – unfathomable

I Don’t Want To See

I wish I could take a picture of the past

Snap it out of focus and blurred

The memories are too painful

I want to find the silver lining

Of the dark clouds that I had

Only one thing I can hope for

That time will blur the things I recall

And eventually the pain will fade


Written for Fandango’s One Word Challenge (FOWC) – blur

Tonight Will Be The Last

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Shake up the bottle

Mix the ingredients

The elixir must be right

It needs to invigorate me

Get me through this night

As shadows creep in

And your memory haunts

I must be vigilant

And be ready for anything

You said you would haunt me

And it appears you were right

But tonight will be different

I will draw on my strength

To meet you head on

And face the demons

You brought to my life

You will no longer

Bring me fear from your grave

I drink down my liquid courage

And wait for your memory

To visit one last time


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – invigorate

Memories Strangle Me

The lights are out

Only the dim glow

From my phone

Shines through the night’s blackness

This old house

If full of noise

Even the wind

Creaks and cracks the wood surrounding me

I should feel comfort

I am back at home

This should be safe

But the past had some scary moments I can’t forget

I shake with fright

It is hard to breathe

And I shut my eyes tight

On the memories that continue to haunt my return home

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – scary

The Letter

Dear Me,

I didn’t mean to hurt you

And lead you down this path,

But my emotions were all tangles up

In thoughts about the past.

I didn’t mean to jeopardize

The future you had planned,

In the heat of the moment,

It just got out of hand.

I could say it was a mistake

That won’t be made again,

But I can never be sure

Of anything again.

Anyway, I have to go now

It is time to face the truth

And hope that things will fall in place

Not crash right through the roof.

So, I write to ask forgiveness

And hope you will comply

Because I can’t live without you,

Signed lovingly, Myself and I

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – anyway

Put It All In The Past (FOWC)

Will I ever know the truth
Especially now that you’re gone
You would always talk about her
And you often worked late
It was easy for me to suspect
Those conversations were not all innocent
And those late nights were not lonely
But I think I need to let it go
Forgive you if you did
Dismiss it if you didn’t
It doesn’t change much
Just holds my heart in anguish
And gives birth to useless thoughts
So where ever you are now
Rest easy
The past is over and I can finally
Release you

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – suspect