How Can I

How can I tell if you’re reliable?

Do you mean what you say?

How can I tell if you’re honest?

Is there truth in your words?

How can I tell if you’re genuine?

Do you speak from your heart?

How can I tell if you’re authentic?

… I don’t want to be hurt anymore.

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – authentic

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Mystery Blogger Award

Sadje of Keep It Alive has nominated me for the Mystery Blogger award.  THANK YOU so much for the nomination.  Be sure to check out her blog!  I am not sure I am up to the standards of the award, but here is why she nominated me…

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The Mystery Blogger Award –

“It’s an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging, and they do it with so much love and passion.”

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Rules (that I will loosely follow… yes, I am a rule breaker!)

  • Put the award logo/image on your blog
  • List the rules
  • Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  • Answer the 5 questions you were asked
  • Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  • You have to nominate 10 to 20 people (*here is where I break the rules a lot… no nominations or you could look at it as 600+ nominations…. EVERYONE who wants to can join in.  I hate to leave anyone out or put pressure on someone to get this done.)
  • Notify your nominees by commenting on their blogs (*consider yourself notified)
  • Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  • Share a link to your best post

Sadje’s Questions:

What is the most important thing/ person to you? 

Easily my daughter

If you were made the queen of England for a day, what would be the first thing that you would do? ( Funny/ Weird question)

Ask what I should have in the purse I carry… a comedian one said something about what does she need?  ID, most people should know who she is.  Money, who is going to make the Queen pay for anything?  And with all the servants with her all the time what does she “need” to carry.  … always wondered.

Name three things that we need most in today’s world?

PEACE, tolerance for our differences – equality, Trump to be out of office.

Do you believe in fate?

I don’t know… do I believe everything in life is all predestined to happen, no.  But I do occasionally feel there are certain things that were meant to happen.  A friend is meant to come into and sometimes out of your life for a reason for example.

What is your ideal way to spend a holiday?

With family… since my Dad just passed away this year family is smaller now.  I treasure those I still have with me.

3 interesting facts about me:

  1. I was on TV once answering phones for the Children’s Miracle Network telethon.
  2. I have had a total of 8 cats as pets since I was a kid to today and 1 dog.
  3. I had one of my poems turned into lyrics as a song thanks to a musician friend a few years ago.

My questions to all of you:

Would you ever want to be famous with the lack of privacy most celebrities have?

What country would you most like to travel to?

What is your dream home like?

If you could co-write with anyone (blogging world or published author) who would it be?

(weird or funny question) You wake up in a jail cell… what is the crime you just committed?

My nominees:

Each and every one of you beautiful people out there!  🙂

Thanks for playing along.  And once again thanks to Sadje!

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The Sunny Side of the Street

This weekend Fandango at This, That and The Other  was nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award… setting his own rules he opened up the questions involved in the award to everyone.  I think that I qualify as anyone and will take a stab and the questions.  Let me get my sword out…

1) What is the most important thing in life for you? My daughter is my world!

2) Do your friends and family support you in blogging (or any other passion of yours)? They know about it and am glad it makes me happy, but they don’t read it. My other passions… I do photography and crafting – they like what I come up with at least.

3) What is your favorite flavor in ice cream? I am partial to butter pecan/praline pecan but the mood strikes me for mint chocolate chip sometimes too.

4) What would be your dream job? Any one I could do… being unable to work really sucks at this age.  Really miss the interaction with people.

5) Who is your favorite actor, or author (if you don’t watch movies)? I like too many to list… it kind of depends what movie genre we are talking about.  I love Joe Hill as an author!

6) What are your ambitions for the next year? To try to get back outside more to take photos and take walks, that is one exercise that usually doesn’t leave me hurting for days.

7) How do you think the world is going to cope with environmental changes? It doesn’t look good.  There are so many things happening already that show how out of whack things are.  As long as people keep their head in the sand about it, it will only get worse faster.

8) What would be your ideal holiday? For a celebration it is Christmas, for a vacation I would love to go to the mountains.

9) How has your way of thinking changed with age? I appreciate the little things more and have learned life is short, let people know you care about them before they are gone.

10) Which season describes your personality? The depression in me wants to say fall as things are all dying.  But I think I have learned to embrace life a little better due to my illnesses so the hope of spring and new life, new opportunities is what I want to be seen for.

Thanks Fandango for letting me play along!

Right and Wrong

I am often at war with myself

Struggling between happy and sad

But now I am caught in a new battle

Between right and wrong

Is it wrong to want to be loved

Is it right to say I am lonely

Is it wrong to think of him

Is it right to think we are over

Is it wrong to hope for the future

Is it right to regret the past

So many questions with no answers

I sit and struggle with life and love

As the war rages on inside my heart and head

All I know is I never stopped loving him

And I feel like I don’t belong here anymore

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – war

I Tried, You Didn’t

I wonder
I think
I guess
Why are you gone
Why can I not forget
Why do I feel guilty
I know you were sick
I know you needed help
I know you didn’t get it
I will never have answers
I will forever have doubts
I will miss you the rest of my life

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – guess

The Inside My Head Tag

I am finally getting around to a Tag Anita at Discovering Your Happiness  tagged me in nearly a month ago – I didn’t forget, I’m just slow.  LOL  Thanks again Anita!!

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Rules:

  • Thank and tag the person who has tagged you.
  • Attach the tag photo
  • Answer the questions
  • Tag 10-20 friends

Now let’s get started…

 

How do I feel at the moment?
– I am warm, just came back from watching the “big” Memorial Day parade in town… it lasts like 3 minutes, maybe 5 if you stretch it out a little.  🙂

What do I need more in my life?
– Friends that communicate more.

What would make me happy right now?
– To have more seasonable weather, is it running about 15 degrees or more above the “normal” spring temperatures – IT’S HOT!

What is going right in my life?
-My therapy.  I still have bad days but I am headed in the right direction.

What am I most grateful for? List 10 things.
– 1) a home 2) my daughter 3) my family in general 4) food in the cupboards 5) my doctors who help keep me on track 6) music, it keeps me company 7) my friends, I may not hear from them as often as I like but they are the “family” I chose 8) my blog, it helps me clear my head and exercise my brain (and I get to communicate with all you great people!)

When did I experience joy this week?
– This morning sharing the parade and some breakfast pizza with my family on the parade route.

List a small victory/success?
– My blog is still growing and gathering views and followers, I never thought people would want to read my words.

What is bothering me & why?
– My fibro, the pain and stiffness is a little higher today.

What are my priorities at the moment?
– Getting a new plan in place for a replacement of the WP daily prompts that are stopping.

What do I love about myself?
– This is a hard one for me, I struggle with self worth.  I would say my creativity.

Who means the world to me & why?
– My daughter, she has grown into a responsible, kind, motivated, amazing, young woman in spite of me as a mom.  She is independent and strong and inspires me.

If I could share one message with the world, what would it be?
– People deserve a second chance.

What advice would I give to my younger self?
– Be careful who you trust.

What lesson did I learn this week?
– This week has just started, but last week I learned or was reminded to be honest with myself first and foremost.

If I had all the time in the world, what would I do first?
– Craft more.

What’s draining my energy?
– Fibromyalgia, depression and anxiety or should I answer WHAT energy?

What does my ideal morning look like?
– Sleeping in!  LOL  😉

What does my ideal day look like?
– Wake up when my body is ready to face the day.  Have some time for reading blogs and looking at emails.  Spend some time with my daughter. Do a little crafting and spend the evening with my boyfriend. And finally a little time to read more blogs and emails and do a little writing.

What makes me come alive?
– Seeing my daughter and good music on my good days.

What/who inspires me the most?
– My daughter and my best friend.

Where does my pain originate?
– Fibro is not picky.  It will attack any and all parts of the body whenever it feels like it.  I do tend to have more back pain right now.

What are my strengths?
– Kindness to a fault, creativity…

What is something I’ve always wanted but too scared to get?
– An RV to travel the US alone.

What is something I would love to learn?
– ASL (American Sign Language)

Where would I want to live my ideal life?
– I actually like where I live.  It is small enough to not be a crowded mess and big enough that there is plenty to do in town or just a short drive away.  We get all four seasons (when Mother Nature is not messed up – snow this April and record high temperatures this weekend).

Where would I like to travel in the next 5 years?
– Minnesota (Mall of America), Omaha (family there) and Montana (best friend)

What can I do to take better care of myself?
– Eat better food and smaller portions and exercise more when I can

What hobbies would I like to try?
– I would like to have the money and energy to golf.  For something more realistic I would like to do some scrapbooking and painting.

When have I done something that I thought I couldn’t do?
– When I got a divorce and got my first place “on my own.”

At the end of my life, what do I want my legacy to be?

– My daughter is my biggest legacy… otherwise I would like to put forth something in my writing that touches or inspires at least one other person.

 

Now to tag others… I struggle some with rules.  I tag EVERYONE to do this informative blog.  No really, if you want to do this PLEASE do and share your link with me so I can see your answers.  Have some fun and share a little!

This Or That Tag

Last month the lovely Anita at Discovering Your Happiness tagged me to answer a long list of questions… I am finally getting around to responding.  (Sorry it took me so long Anita!)

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The Rules:

  • Thank & tag the person that has tagged you
  • Attach the tag photo
  • Answers the ‘THIS or THAT” questions
  • Tag a 10-20 friends.

So here’s the questions…

  1. Dog or Cat?
  2. Netflix or YouTube?
  3. Phone Call or Text?
  4. Toast or Eggs?
  5. Cardio or Weights?
  6. Facebook or Twitter?
  7. Ice Cream Cone or Snow Cone?
  8. Mobile Games or Console Games?
  9. While walking: Music or Podcasts?
  10. iOS or Android?
  11. Cake or Pie?
  12. Swimming or Sunbathing?
  13. Big Party or Small Gathering?
  14. New Clothes or New Phone?
  15. Rich Friend or Loyal Friend?
  16. Football or Basketball?
  17. Nice Car or Nice Home Interior?
  18. What’s worse: Laundry or Dishes?
  19. Jogging or Hiking?
  20. Bath or Shower?
  21. Sneakers or Sandals?
  22. Glasses or Contacts?
  23. Hamburger or Taco?
  24. Couch or Recliner?
  25. Online Shopping or Shopping in a Store?
  26. Receive: Email or Letter?
  27. Passenger or Driver?
  28. Tablet or Computer?
  29. Most important in a partner: Intelligent or Funny?
  30. Car or Truck?
  31. Blue or Red?
  32. Money or Free Time?
  33. Amusement Park or Day at the Beach?
  34. At a movie: Candy or Popcorn?
  35. Pen or Pencil?
  36. Toilet paper: Over or Under?
  37. Cups in the cupboard: Right Side Up or Up Side Down?
  38. Pancake or Waffle?
  39. Coke or Pepsi?
  40. Coffee Cup or Thermos?
  41. Blinds or Curtain?
  42. Train or Plane?
  43. Phone or Tablet?
  44. Iced Coffee or Hot Coffee?
  45. Meat or Vegetables?
  46. International Vacation or a New TV?
  47. Save or Spend?
  48. Honesty or Other’s Feelings?
  49. Coffee or Tea?
  50. TV or Book?
  51. Movie at Home or Movie at the Theater?
  52. Ocean or Mountains?
  53. Horror Movie or Comedy Movie?
  54. City or Countryside?
  55. Winter or Summer?
  56. Mac or PC?
  57. Console Gaming or PC Gaming?
  58. Soup or Sandwich?
  59. Card Game or Board Game?
  60. Camping or Binge Watching Shows at Home?
  61. Working Alone or Working in a Team?
  62. Dine In or Delivery?
  63. Sweater or Hoodie?
  64. Motorcycle or Bicycle?
  65. Book or eBook?
  66. When sleeping: Fan or No Fan?
  67. TV Shows or Movies?

My answers…

Dog or Cat?  Both but for choices, cat
Netflix or YouTube?  Netflix
Phone Call or Text?  Sometimes I have anxiety on the phone, but I prefer talking than texting for the most part.  I want to hear your voice.
Toast or Eggs?  Love fried, scrambled with cheese, an omelet, or a good old hard boiled egg!
Cardio or Weights?  Can’t do much of either, I guess my short walks count closer to cardio
Facebook or Twitter? FB
Ice Cream Cone or Snow Cone? When it’s hot outside either one is good, but year round I will eat ice cream
Mobile Games or Console Games?  I do both… but would be more lost without my computer games
While walking: Music or Podcasts? Music all the way!
iOS or Android? Android
Cake or Pie? This is tough.. you can have a bigger variety to choose from with pie though
Swimming or Sunbathing?  Swimming or as close to it as I come
Big Party or Small Gathering? Small gathering… crowds are bad with anxiety
New Clothes or New Phone?  New clothes, my phone is not that old
Rich Friend or Loyal Friend? Loyal which can be hard to find
Football or Basketball? If this is American football I pick it, if soccer then basketball.  I just never learned much about soccer growing up
Nice Car or Nice Home Interior?   …?  Hmm, probably car
What’s worse: Laundry or Dishes? dishes, laundry you can start and walk away from
Jogging or Hiking? Hiking
Bath or Shower? Shower unless it is a big  (whirlpool) tub I can kick back and relax in
Sneakers or Sandals?  Sneakers
Glasses or Contacts? Had both, but now find glasses are just easier
Hamburger or Taco? Love them both… probably hamburger
Couch or Recliner? Sit on a couch but I sleep in a recliner so I like them both
Online Shopping or Shopping in a Store? In a store to get clothes but other things are ok online if it is cheaper
Receive: Email or Letter?  Letter!  I wish I got more, but I do send out a lot
Passenger or Driver? This depends on the traffic, speeds and weather…. plus if I am having more anxiety that day.
Tablet or Computer?  Laptop
Most important in a partner: Intelligent or Funny?  Funny, but not an idiot
Car or Truck?  Car
Blue or Red?  Red
Money or Free Time?  Free time, lots to do that cost little to no money!
Amusement Park or Day at the Beach? If it is just me maybe a beach, but I love to see others ride the rides I am too afraid to get on, plus someone has to hold the bags LOL
At a movie: Candy or Popcorn?  Popcorn with buttery topping!
Pen or Pencil?  Pen
Toilet paper: Over or Under?  Definitely over
Cups in the cupboard: Right Side Up or Up Side Down? Which ever way they fit better… I have a fair share of different shaped cups and mugs
Pancake or Waffle?  Waffles
Coke or Pepsi?  Coke
Coffee Cup or Thermos?  Cup
Blinds or Curtain? Prefer curtains, can only afford blinds LOL
Train or Plane?  … never been on a train?
Phone or Tablet?  Phone
Iced Coffee or Hot Coffee?  Hot coffee
Meat or Vegetables?  I couldn’t live without meat, but I like the big variety of vegetables
International Vacation or a New TV?  I would love to travel
Save or Spend?  I try to save but bills get in the way
Honesty or Other’s Feelings?  Honesty always is best in the long run
Coffee or Tea?  Coffee
TV or Book?  If the fibro fog is clear, a book
Movie at Home or Movie at the Theater?  Both have their pluses, but if it is a highly special effects movie I prefer to see it in the theater
Ocean or Mountains? … never seen either
Horror Movie or Comedy Movie?  Horror
City or Countryside?  Countryside
Winter or Summer? Winter comes third after Spring and Fall… I just hate the hot HUMID summer sticky weather
Mac or PC?  PC
Console Gaming or PC Gaming?  PC if it is just me… otherwise I like console games we all can play
Soup or Sandwich?  Soup
Card Game or Board Game?  Card game – LOVE Shanghai Rummy!
Camping or Binge Watching Shows at Home?  Never been camping
Working Alone or Working in a Team?  Team of strangers NO, team I know yes
Dine In or Delivery?  Delivery
Sweater or Hoodie?  Hoodie
Motorcycle or Bicycle?  Bicycle
Book or eBook?  BOOK… love the feel of turning a page
When sleeping: Fan or No Fan?  Need a fan year round
TV Shows or Movies?  Movies

Now I am supposed to tag others… TAG, you are ALL it.  Seriously, those interested PLEASE do share a little about yourself.  But I wont name anyone for fear of leaving someone out.  Enjoy!