Surviving

She has had enough

Life is too chaotic

She must find a way

To focus on calm

To find clarity again

To once more be centered

She draws a bath

And sinks into the warm waters

The tub like a comforting hug

Breathing deeply

She feels peace

Slowly wash over her

Like sun breaking through

On a cloudy day

She washes away

The ugliness of the day

The hate and lies she’s faced

The evils of society

And the sadness she feels

She stays until the waters grow cold

And she is finally relaxed

Hoping it will last

She steps out

Clinging to the feelings

Of an inner harmony

And she thinks she will make it

Through one more day

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – tub https://fivedotoh.com/2020/05/27/fowc-with-fandango-tub/

Photo by Craig Adderley from Pexels

A Mountain Out Of A Molehill

It starts small

A spark of an idea

That grows in size

From a problem

To a full blown crisis

I imagine the worst

I did something wrong

I drove him away

It was all me

That brought this to an end

I will never see him again

He will hate me forever

But it’s only my anxieties

Taking full rein

Charging into chaos

Leaving me to blame

I take a deep breath

And reevaluate things

It is really not so bad

I think it will all pass

Without more drama

If only I relax

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – crisis

Burned Out

we put ourselves on trial
in oh so many ways
judging ourselves harshly
about the way we feel each day
and should we stop and rest
it feels like it’s a crime
putting our feet up to relax
for just a short time
we need to think about ourselves
and how we burn our fuse
for if we over do it
there will be nothing of us to use

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – trial

Happy and Grateful – Day 358

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Happy Christmas Eve!  This is the quiet of the night… very little traffic outside, no noise from the neighbors, and everyone asleep waiting for the big day tomorrow.  This is the first year in a long time I will not be up until the wee hours wrapping gifts – I finished that early this evening.  I am grateful to not have hours ahead of me still.

Today we finished the last little bits of getting ready for tomorrow.  We have chili simmering to take to lunch tomorrow and my boyfriend’s sister’s house.  The meatloaf for dinner is mixed and ready to go from refrigerator to oven tomorrow for dinner.  We are so organized this year compared to other years it is kind of scary.  BUT, it makes me happy to be able to relax a little (as much as my anxiety will let me) and just enjoy the day.

Now my meds have been taken and the chili has been stirred so I will read a few more posts and hope to sleep soon.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 277

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

Today was another busy day.  I took Dad to his coffee group.  I was surprised he was up to going but he did pretty good walking in to the table.  Maybe some of the worst pain is past for him now.  I can always hope!  Then I had to pick up some prescriptions. I have been without my inhaler for a while now because I kept forgetting to call the refill in.  I am grateful I am restocked now.

My boyfriend wanted some Mexican food tonight so we went to a local restaurant that is always good.  I picked up some food for my Dad and dropped off his dinner.  Then was happy to be home where I could put my feet up and relax finally.  It seems I have been on the go for a full week now… I am exhausted.

More errands tomorrow so I should post this so I can get some sleep.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Lovely Little Leaves

The kettle starts to whistle

I make my way to the stove

The day has been hectic

And it’s time for a cup of tea

I search through the cupboard

Finding just the right blend

Tonight it will be a little chamomile

I pour the water over the tea and wait

When the time is right

I add a bit of honey

Then take my cup to the couch

I grab a book to read

And try to relax the day away

One sip at a time…

From Bad To Better

The day has been disastrous
Bills in the mail,
Pain in my back,
Phone calls from lawyers,
I’ve about had enough.

One thing after another –
The stress is piling up,
Anxiety takes hold,
Fear is creeping in,
My mind’s on overload.

I need to just unplug –
Relax my mind,
Clear my thoughts,
Slow down,
Take a deep breath.

It’s bound to get better –
Time will tell,
Sooner or later,
Keep hope alive,
Tomorrow is another day.

 

Day 87 – 100 Days of Happiness

Today was a much-needed day of rest.  I have been on the go most of the week for appointments, errands and extra trips out-of-town.  But today I had no appointments.  I didn’t need to take my Dad to any appointments.  My sister helped me out this evening by taking Dad some dinner so I did not have to go over and fix him something.  I walked past the laundry hamper and did not touch the washer or dryer.  My boyfriend picked us up pizza for dinner so no cooking and no dishes thanks to paper plates.  I got caught up on my email and even took the time to read a little bit.  It was a nice day.