Happy and Grateful – Day 306

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

Sorry I am once again late in posting.  Last night the fatigue got the best of me and hit me before I could even post my word prompt poem.  But I am rested and refreshed and as awake as I will get.  I have had my coffee and gone through my email for the day… now to take care of some WordPress business.

Yesterday was the end of several days of activity.  It was a busy day in itself.  I had a doctor’s appointment, Dad had one and I dropped off some soup for my daughter.  I was especially grateful to have my appointment with my therapist… it is a difficult week with my Mom’s birthday and the anniversary of my ex-husband’s death.  Visiting with my daughter though I feel better because she will not be alone on Saturday when her dad died,  She will be spending time with her boyfriend.  I know she misses her Dad terribly and unfortunately there is nothing I can do to take away that pain.

My happy moment was a little errand I ran for myself.  I went to Hobby Lobby to look for embossing folders.  I was sad to see there were none in stock that I wanted. but I still managed to find a few things on sale but kept my total under $10.  I love shopping a good sale!

Well I have things to do around the house so I need to put the laptop down.  I hope you find your happiness and feel your gratitude today.  Have a wonderful day/night!

Mom Is Gone

If I were ten years old

I would run to my secret hideout

And just wait…


Wait until I stopped wanting to cry

Wait until my heart didn’t feel trampled inside

Wait until  a new day started

Because you said sunlight is always kinder

Wait until my head didn’t spin

Wait for another chance to read your notes

Wait for a new game of Parcheesi to start

Wait for the chocolate to melt on our tongues

But mostly I would wait forever

Just to hear you call my name

One more time…


It has been 6 1/2 years since my mom died in her sleep… I still miss her today like it was yesterday and ache for her friendship.

A Hand To Hold No More

Don’t make eye contact

just stare at the sidewalk.

He is walking this way

and the pain is still raw.

A love not returned

is a love that is lost.

But you swallow the pain

and pretend it doesn’t hurt

You dash into a doorway,

out of sight out of mind.

As he strides right past you,

you start to cry.

No one can shake you

the way that he can…

to this day it still hurts

that you can’t hold his hand.

Falling On Deaf Ears

I scream the words in silent fits of rage
They flow mist like past the unaware ears
Never do they meet and my heart shatters
Knowing the truth would be my death
The words were as honest
As the deafening silence replied
Creating a vacuum of unanswered dreams
A black hole my heart disappears into
One shard at a time…