Cruel Words

Take my heart
It is barely beating
Place it in a small box
It may be compact
But it will fit
Now close it up tight
Seal it to keep everyone out
Place it on a shelf up high
For I want no one to touch it
It has been taking hits all week
It needs a place to feel
Safe and out of his reach
At least for today
Now no one can hurt me again


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – compact

Happy and Grateful – Day 253

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

Today was a pretty quiet day.  I did some computer work, watched a movie with my boyfriend and started some laundry.  And that was enough for me to handle for today.  The fatigue was trying to bother me again today and I have been pretty down, but I made it through the day.

Nothing big and exciting for the day, but I have to look at the big picture.  With so many people effected by the hurricanes, wild fires and earthquakes I am just grateful to have a place to call home today… with power and water that is safe to drink.  I have been through flooding and boil warnings for water so I know how precious water can be.

On the same note, I am happy those I know in the areas of the hurricanes and fires are safe.  I tend to worry about things like that.

I take a minute to pray that these disasters are contained soon with little injured. Now I need to close my eyes.  Find you happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

(just discovered I did not post this last night… hope you all forgive me for being a little late with this post)

Happy and Grateful – Day 229

Seven months are gone now and surprisingly I am still plugging along with this challenge to post about my happiness and gratitude every day this year.  August brings the state fair here in Iowa and lots of heat and humidity.  It is the time to see the back to school shopping start with kids dreading it and parents loving it.  As I continue my challenge I hope you will take a minute to reflect on your day too.  You can even share your happiness and gratitude here in the comments or on your own blog.  There is good in every day!

Another day… another afternoon with Special Reports from the news desk breaking into programming on television, news updates on Facebook and radio DJ’s talking of more hate in the world.  My anxiety and depression make it hard to watch the news.  Being a compassionate human makes it hard to watch the news.  So I stepped a little out of my norm for the daily prompt post I made for unfurl (A New Flag).  I find it so discouraging to see how little value people put in human lives… unless they are ____(fill in the blank).

To try to counter all that, I find myself listening to music tonight.  Trying to find answers to why.  I saw my therapist this afternoon and talked a little about the news of the week.  And I know he is right in saying there are more good people than bad in the world… some weeks it is hard to believe it though.  So I sit here and try to find music that gives me hope.  Try to write out the words of hurt and pain.  Grateful my friends and family are all safe tonight… and saying a prayer for those who aren’t.

I had a moment today of happiness when I shared some time with my Dad.  He seemed in a better mood tonight than he has been and we had a nice talk while I fixed him dinner and he ate it.  With him at 81 I worry those talks will not be available much longer.

I am going to try to read some more posts before it gets too late.  Stress can wear me out and it has been a stressful day with the newscasts.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!