I wish I could do nothing but sleep

It is the only way I can talk to you

When I am asleep

We laugh together

You take my hand in yours

And my “what if’s” take flight

I never have to wonder

How you feel about me

I never have to question

The reasons you’re with me

We just are together

Like we were meant to be a couple

No one to tell us different

No one to stand between us

Just us and nothing but time

But my alarm goes off

And our time is gone

I wish I could do nothing but sleep…

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – asleep

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio from Pexels

Leave Well Enough Alone

I am angry

It takes a lot to make me angry

But you won’t listen

It’s more like you can’t listen

Another night with your Russian mistress

Drowning yourself in the vodka

I have never been able to compete

And I would tell you that

But you’re too drunk to understand

So I leave well enough alone

And swallow down my frustrations

Telling you to just go to sleep


Written for Fandango’s February Expressions (FFE) #7

A to Z Challenge – Night Owl

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N is for night owl

I am a night owl.  I come from a family of night owls.  My Dad used to work the 11 to 7 over night shift and mom would often be up late listening to the scanner while he was working.  So, I grew up with a night time influence.  As we were getting ready for bed, Dad was just getting up and starting his “day” so, we wanted to stay up later of course to talk to Dad.  Some times Mom let us get away with it, but not often if it was a school night.

On the weekends and during summer vacation we didn’t have a set bedtime that I remember.  I remember so many nights trying to stay up late enough to watch the Creature Feature of TV.  I rarely made it that late and I probably would have been too scared to sleep if I had.

As I became an adult I tried to work night shifts as I would be up late and sleep in.  But the real world is not built for night owls and I did struggle to get to work when I had morning shifts.

I do still struggle with mornings.  I am a light sleeper but anything before 10 usually has to be done with multiple alarms set.  I am usually up until about 2 in the morning.  And I really like the quiet to think.  I feel some of my better writing happens after midnight.

As midnight approaches I draw on reflections of the day.  I take time to read, to write and sadly some night deal with my demons.  But I am sure I will always be a night owl.  I’ll be 75 in the nursing home with the radio on at midnight tapping my toes and wishing I could still dance to the music.  Are you a night owl too?


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I Guess I’ll Write

The luminescent glow from the alarm clock softly lit the room. “If I get to sleep now,” thought Sara, “I can still get four hours of sleep.” The sounds drifting through the window hinted however that the odds of getting to sleep soon were not good.

The neighbors were having a family cookout that was still going strong after starting seven hours earlier. Sara sighed and rolled over again. Thinking the radio might block out the noise she turned it on, but it was no use. She gave up and put her robe on heading to the computer to write.

Happy and Grateful – Day 331 and 332

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

I think I am back to the land of the living… been sick the last couple of days and sleeping a lot.  Let’s see if I can catch up a little more today.  At least with writing posts… I am getting there on reading.

Day 331

This was our late Thanksgiving.  I could feel the cold coming on but you know the show must go on.  It was a memorable day, one unlike any other I have been a part of.  Got up and put the turkey in the oven and slowly gathered together all the trimmings to be cooked as well – mashed potatoes and gravy, candied yams, green been casserole, corn, rolls, stuffing and cranberry salad.  Enough food for an army.

After all hustle and timing was executed to get things done at the same time… I put the yams in the oven with the marshmallows on top to brown and waited.  …and waited.   … and waited.  Finally I thought they were almost ready and my boyfriend went to carve the turkey… it was not fully cooked.  We then discovered the oven was not heating up fully.  So we microwaved the turkey to finish cooking what we were going to eat and put the bird back in the oven.

All in all the turkey probably took twice as long to fully cook. By the time it was done I was coughing and starting to feel feverish.  So after my daughter went home I took some medicine and sat down finally.  Since then all I have done is cough and sleep.  We did have the maintenance crew look at the oven.  The element was broken and it took maybe 5 minutes to fix.  Not that we will need the oven anytime soon with all the leftovers we have now.  But we were together, could laugh about the troubles of the day and had a delicious meal still.

So to get where I need to go with this, instead of just babbling about the day…. my happy moment was being together with family.  I was grateful to have a back-up to finish cooking the turkey in the microwave.  Can’t imagine what we would have done without that.

Day 332

I slept.  I slept a lot.  And I was very grateful to be able to sleep most of the day away.  I did stay awake long enough to watch a movie with my boyfriend… we watched the suspense drama Split with James McAvoy.  It was really very good I thought and I was happy to stay awake long enough to watch it.

I can finally say I am actually hungry again… yesterday all I ate was a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.  So I am going to go take a stab at some leftovers for lunch.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 308

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

Once again the fatigue got me last night.  It hit without warning and I was out for the night.  But I think this goes with my post today because it was the first night in quite a while that I did not wake up in the middle of the night, not once.  So I will use the end of the day for my gratitude for a good night sleep.

I possibly slept so well since I was feeling a lot of anxiety yesterday.  It was the anniversary of my ex-husband’s death.  I know it is a day very hard for my daughter and this was the first year she did not turn to me but instead her boyfriend.  They both had the day off and were going to spend it together.  It was all I could do to keep from texting her all day, but I was happy she has found someone who will be there for her when she needs it.

I suppose it is time to shake the rest of the sleep out of my head and get on with the day.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful day/night!

Happy and Grateful – Day 287

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

What a day for a football game.  My favorite team was delayed almost 45 minutes due to nearby thunderstorms.  But once the game started it was all Cyclones and it ended up 45 to nothing.  That made me happy and was a good way to start the day.

I spent the day doing a little writing and some photo editing.  It was good to stay busy as tonight my mind is wandering more and making the time barely move.  Of course since I had a very short night of sleep (maybe 4 hours only) I am also feeling out of sorts because of that.  But I am grateful that it is the end of the work week for my boyfriend and so nothing to wake up early in the morning for.

Sorry if this is a little disjointed, I am just struggling to stay awake and get it done.  I hope to read a couple more blogs and then go to sleep.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Days 256 & 257

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

Forgive me for holding over last nights post and combining it with today’s.  There has been so much going on this week it all seems like one big blur to me anyway.  Last night I was so tired I am lucky I got the post in for the daily prompt.  I am a little more alert tonight.

Yesterday was busy.  Met my daughter for lunch, took my Dad to an appointment, picked up my boyfriend from work and then took him to the car dealership to look at a used car he is getting.  By the time I finally arrived back home, the cat needed to be reintroduced to me.  LOL  My gratitude to have a nice comfy chair to come home to and put my feet up in… ah, I needed that!

But since the day started with an early lunch (or was it a late breakfast?) with my daughter I would say it started out on a happy note at least.

Today was much more low-key.  I went back to sleep after I took my boyfriend to work and got some still needed rest.  I was grateful I didn’t have to be anywhere until mid afternoon when I saw my doctor for my weekly visit.

My happy moment for the day came from a sense of accomplishment by getting some paperwork done I had been putting off.  Having gotten the extra sleep my head was actually clear enough to comprehend what I was doing.  I am glad that is done.

Now tomorrow the whirlwind starts again so I should get some rest.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude!  Have a wonderful night/day!