Mumbles … Impose

Impose is “force to accept or take advantage of” according to my pocket dictionary. Most often I hear it in the form of take advantage of. Someone coming over doesn’t want to impose upon you to stay for dinner. Or be an imposition and spent the night during a storm.

(This is where I go off course a little bit) A storm is possibly coming this weekend. Normally that wouldn’t mean much but we are celebrating our Thanksgiving on Sunday as my boyfriend works retail and my daughter in the food service and both business are open on Thanksgiving. So we have just decided not to fight it and have Thanksgiving on the weekend.

Now this year we are seating 5 people at our tiny kitchen table (need to move an office chair in so everyone has a seat) and 3 of those 5 live out of town. So I have been watching the forecast and in the last two days we went from 10% chance of snow, to 20% chance and now today the forecast I saw was for 80% chance. UGH! I really want everyone to make it to dinner. I would not mind them staying the night if they got stranded – we have two recliners and a couch that would accommodate them… and it would not be an imposition.

So I will keep my eyes on the weather map and hope to see everyone for a late Thanksgiving. I send out hopes that all of you had a very happy Thanksgiving and are surviving any Black Friday shopping you are doing!

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – impose

Delayed

The snow is falling fast and the winds continue to howl. You were supposed to be here over an hour ago. I check my phone; no messages, it’s still silent. I am frantic with worry as the visibility outside continues to dwindle. The news talks of accidents and abandoned vehicles.
Once more I go to the door, open it and look up and down the street for any sign of a car. The icy chill greets me as I hear what could be an engine. I hold my breath, waiting, until at last I see headlights and you returning home.

Happy and Grateful – Day 363

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Snow is pretty… pretty annoying too.  We got about 3 inches, which really isn’t much but it is one of the first all day snows we have had and it is cold… and only going to get worse.  This is Friday night and there is a wind chill advisory until Tuesday.  Ugh!  But I had to go out today… needed my prescriptions refilled and had a gift to return (wrong size) and then my daughter offered to take us out to lunch.  So I was out in the thick of it.  I was grateful there was not the freezing drizzle they had in some areas at least.

Now if you have read my blog you know I worry… about everything.  That is the nature of anxiety and depression.  But I was happy to hear from my daughter via a text message that she arrived at work ok (about a 20 to 30 minute drive away).  Often she forgets when I ask her to let me know so I was happy she didn’t.

All the tension from my first winter driving of the year has left my back in knots.  So I sit on a heating pad and took my pain meds and hope to sleep soon.  So forgive me if my writing does not make sense, I am not thinking quite clearly.

Only two more posts…. but a year worth of awareness has been great.  I hope you find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 362

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

I have a tough week ahead of me.  I have homework from my therapist to do.  Writing down my pain (physical and emotional) in a diary.  It is part of acceptance therapy he is working with me on and as often as I have painful thoughts these days I will be writing all day long.  It is going to be tough to do, but I have already noticed some changes since we started this workbook and we are only 60 pages into the 200 page book.  So I am going into this week hopeful and scared at what I will learn about myself, but determined to get it accomplished.  For these last few days I hope I can do both.  I already had to note my sadness as I wrote my poem for “cozy.”

Besides seeing my doctor and watching the snow pile up… I did take my Dad to the clinic.  I was grateful the main roads were mostly clear of the snow and I didn’t slide around too much.  Now we are in for another system of about 3 more inches…only 81 days, 10 hours and 30 minutes until spring.  But who is counting?

I did relax a bit tonight and watch a movie with my boyfriend.  He got the new Kingsman movie for Christmas and we watched it.  It was good but it was another one of those movies with whispered dialog, so you turn the volume up but get BLASTED out of your chair when an action scene comes up.  I just sat in the quiet after it was over happily hearing nothing but the soft hum of the furnace running.

Ok… I am STILL behind on reading posts.  Let’s see how far I can get before my meds kick in tonight.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

 

Happy and Grateful – Day 259

The kids are all in school, there is a growing crisp in the air.  Football games and shorter days fill the weeks.  It is September.  I have accomplished another month of acknowledging my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join me as I continue my goal of one year on this journey.  Please join in with your happiness and gratitude in the comments or your own blog post.  No matter how bad the day is there is always something worthwhile in the day.

The days are noticeably getting shorter, the trees are already starting to change a little bit… I am not ready for fall.  Don’t get me wrong, I like fall.  It is just what comes after it that I dread.  Of course with temperatures in the 90’s we are not going to have to worry about that soon.  Although my Dad did tell me tonight they got snow in some part of Montana I think it was.  In his words, “They can keep it there.”

First day this week I have not had any appointments to get to… it was nice for a change.  I did go through my ever-growing stack of mail and shredded some nearly 30 credit card offers… and a majority were from the same company.  What a waste of paper!  But it was nice to have a fairly quiet day to get that done and I am grateful I can see that corner of the table again.

Today was not one of my happier days… really struggled with loneliness off and on today.  But I was happy to get a message or two from a friend out-of-state.  Hadn’t heard from him for a while and more than anything else it was SO NICE to have someone take the time to ask how I was doing.  I will admit I hid behind a vague answer but it was still great to think that someone actually cares how I feel.

I need to try to sleep now that the thunderstorms have calmed down a little.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 71

As March begins I continue with my goal to find happiness and gratitude every day.  There is at least some small thing that can bring a smile and give you a moment to be grateful for.  Please join me in looking for the good moments of the day … it would be great if you would share them in the comments or on your own blog.  Be aware of the little wonders of the day!

Today I have spent a lot of it worrying.  Worrying is something I am really good at, I learned worrying from my Mom.  She would stay up late listening to the police scanner when my Dad worked overnight shift as a policeman.  So I definitely learned a thing or two from her.

First there is a winter storm advisory out for the night.  Last I looked we had a couple of inches of snow already.  But we aren’t supposed to get more than 5 inches.  Probably the most we have had in a storm this year, but I have been through a lot worse in the past.  My biggest concern was my daughter getting home from work and she made it fine.

I have also been worried about a friend who is seeing his biological father for the first time in a lot of years.  He never really knew him at all growing up and they were meeting tonight.  I felt better after he texted me things went ok for the night.

My worrying has been done for the day.  I am happy I can relax a little now.  Taking my anxiety meds will help too.  I am grateful every one is safe and happy.  Now if I can just get my tension level down enough to sleep…

Happy and Grateful – Day 16

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

I live in the Midwest… we get every kind of weather except hurricanes.  We are having a bit warmer winter right now.  That may sound like a nice thing but that means ice instead of snow.  I recall winters as a kid where we would build tunnels through the snow it was piled so high… not this year.  We just had a big ice storm, actually a lot of the country saw ice.  I am not happy about what we got, but what we didn’t get.  No wind to pull down heavy ice-covered trees and power lines.  And it was not thick ice.  Now we are looking for temperatures near 50°F later this week… certainly not a “normal” winter.

I am happy we came out of this storm with no damage in the area.  There were no accidents for the people I know.  And nobody I know ended up falling on the ice.  I am grateful I didn’t have to go anywhere once the freezing rain began.  In fact most of the ice is off the roads now before I have to go out.  Mild temperatures are good for clearing the roads quickly at least.