You are Absent from my life
I feel intense Pain from being
Alone for the first time in my life
But I do not Regret my decision
These Tears are not for you
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – apart
Apart
Tag: tears
Upon Hearing the News
Chaos takes over
Destruction reigns
Mayhem ensues
There is a war going on
In my heart and head
Tears fight to come out
As anger and sadness
Battle for control
Frustration and fear
Pain and confusion
All join into the mess
As my enthusaiam is crushed
And happiness fades away
I finally hang my head and weep
…
Do you ever hear bad news and want to world to go away? I just learned someone who once was a friend died in the summer and I am just now finding out about it. I can’t believe I let our friendship drift off to nothing but Christmas cards once a year. I am ashamed, sad, mad, petrified I will lose more friends… this hurts and I need to heal.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – mayhem
Faulty Feelings
Even love is not perfect
The emotion can be fallible
Two lovers try to be as one
But life can get in the way
Problems and stresses
Outsiders and haters
All chip away at the relationship
Until the two have lost their way
And nothing is left behind
Except tears and pain
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – fallible
At Odds Again
He sat silent
She was in tears
He did nothing to console her
She had given up trying to talk to him
The tension was still in the air
The words lingering above them
Heavy like rain clouds
She was putting the blame on him
He just claimed she was lying
Wiping the tears away she stood up
She went to the office and typed a letter
He never moved
In black and white she would make him see
She needed a change
If he wouldn’t try
It was over
She wrote those words
And felt a new confidence
That she could do this
Because she really doubted
He would be willing to change
Passed out in the chair now
She put the note in his hand
She would be gone when he read it
He would know what he had to do
If he still cared enough to do so
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – air
Seeing Spots
Another tear falls
Leaving a spot on my shirt
It is just salt water
But the dark spot bothers me
Today I want to honor her
And I want it to be perfect
Not marred by tears
But that slow release
Of liquid from my eyes continues
And if I look past my aggravation
I can see it is not ruining anything
In fact the release of each tear
Alleviates a little of the pain I have
Trying to say goodbye
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – alleviate
Down The Road
Like water out of a faucet
The tears fall from my chin
They keep coming and coming
Trying to wash away
This unending pain
The one you left me
When you moved away
Down the drain
Goes my hopes of happiness
No one will ever
Be as important to me
As you were then
You turned away
And got on the bus
Like it was just for a trip downtown
While inside my heart shattered
As I watched the taillights
Fade into the distance
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – drain
Acceptance
I can’t do it anymore
Force the smile
When inside I cry
I was so hurt
When you left me
And things spiraled
Out of control
I have lost others
From my life
And a big piece
Of who I am
I have to finish
This deception
And no longer
Turn away from
The pain I feel
Let the tears flow
And embrace the pain
If I ever want to
Be whole again
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – finish
The Let Down
She just broke down into tears. It was just moments after her hand slipped and dropped the vase of roses. It wasn’t the spilled water on the floor, the broken stems or the cracked vase that got to her. It was the fact that they had been his roses from the funeral. She had once more done something to let him down. She would never be the perfect child now and her heart was tired from years of trying without success. She lost herself in tears of regret and disappointment. She sobbed thinking he died not knowing she loved him.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – spill
Mumbles … noble
“Tears are the noble language of the eye.” – Robert Herrick
I sit here in the dark with tears welling in my eyes… I fight to keep them from falling. I miss the time I was spending with my Dad no matter how hard it was seeing him in decline. In one week we will have our gathering/visitation to remember him. I am already dealing with anxiety over being in a room with so many people OR being disappointed by how few show up. I remember back to his retirement party and the room it was held in was full, with people standing outside in the hall to hear the festivities.
I am slowly still going through posts while daily remembering people we forgot to contact. I let two more people know today and thought of one more to contact tomorrow. I am trying to go about a normal day as possible but it just isn’t easy. As you can see I am not really writing about noble I am just writing. I am so far behind and know as we clean out Dad’s house there will be more chronic fatigue to deal with. So I say it again… I will get to your posts as soon as I can. I keep trying to move forward. Some days are easier than others, and this has been a hard night. Doing something I normally did for Dad was to pick up things at Walmart… tonight when I went there it hit me that those trips for Dad are done. Just kind of took the wind out of my sails.
I will stop with my babbling fingertips now. My eyes have gone from filled with tears to struggling to stay open. Thanks for putting up with me straggling behind the daily posts and reading. Good night!
Written for (my peace of mind and) Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – noble
All Dried Up
The pain is real
It burns through my body
The tightness in my chest
Takes away my breath
There is a lump in my throat
That I just can’t swallow
And yet somehow I feel broken
Because the tears won’t fall
…it feels worse than actually crying
Leigha Robbins 