Mumbles … Gravy

Gravy, the word conjures up comfort food in most people.  But it sent me squealing tires, fast as can be back to the past.  A word my ex used to use at least once a week.  He worked for a printing company and would get big jobs that once they were set up were just “gravy” or super easy to run.  I hadn’t thought of that term in years.  Why did it drag me to the past today?

Last month was the anniversary of his death and this month is his birthday.  Plus, you throw in holidays that are missing someone.  And no matter what, in spite of the divorce, he was still a friend of mine.  Someone I care about, never really stopped loving him but HATED what the bottle had done to him.

So, here I am in the past with all those old questions, worries and what ifs.  It is a trap I fall into too often.  When you are married to someone for 20 years it is hard to walk away.  But I had to for my own peace of mind.  The alcohol killed what was once so beautiful.  The lies and self destruction were too much. 

On a side note to gravy, I had been getting a little closer to caught up and then the holiday came.  We had two Thanksgivings and I fell back to more than a week behind.  BUT I will catch up hopefully before Christmas.  I am ahead of schedule on my Christmas cards so I should only need one more day for that to be done.  Bear with me.  And I hope everyone has a great weekend! (((HUGS)))

Written for Fandango One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – gravy

Mumbles … Impose

Impose is “force to accept or take advantage of” according to my pocket dictionary. Most often I hear it in the form of take advantage of. Someone coming over doesn’t want to impose upon you to stay for dinner. Or be an imposition and spent the night during a storm.

(This is where I go off course a little bit) A storm is possibly coming this weekend. Normally that wouldn’t mean much but we are celebrating our Thanksgiving on Sunday as my boyfriend works retail and my daughter in the food service and both business are open on Thanksgiving. So we have just decided not to fight it and have Thanksgiving on the weekend.

Now this year we are seating 5 people at our tiny kitchen table (need to move an office chair in so everyone has a seat) and 3 of those 5 live out of town. So I have been watching the forecast and in the last two days we went from 10% chance of snow, to 20% chance and now today the forecast I saw was for 80% chance. UGH! I really want everyone to make it to dinner. I would not mind them staying the night if they got stranded – we have two recliners and a couch that would accommodate them… and it would not be an imposition.

So I will keep my eyes on the weather map and hope to see everyone for a late Thanksgiving. I send out hopes that all of you had a very happy Thanksgiving and are surviving any Black Friday shopping you are doing!

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – impose

Happy and Grateful – Day 335

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

So thoughts now turn to getting ready for Christmas.  I did take time to go over my address lists for Christmas cards today and I think it is all current.  Although I have not got much energy back yet I was grateful to be clear minded enough today to get that done.

Finding a happy moment with a cold is a little challenging, but I would have to say my boyfriend helped to make that happen today.  He had his discount shopping night (a company thank you for working on Thanksgiving) and although I was not up for shopping he did a good job of getting us some food to stock up with.  I was happy he managed to find several good deals.

Now to post this before I fall asleep again, I already was out once.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 331 and 332

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

I think I am back to the land of the living… been sick the last couple of days and sleeping a lot.  Let’s see if I can catch up a little more today.  At least with writing posts… I am getting there on reading.

Day 331

This was our late Thanksgiving.  I could feel the cold coming on but you know the show must go on.  It was a memorable day, one unlike any other I have been a part of.  Got up and put the turkey in the oven and slowly gathered together all the trimmings to be cooked as well – mashed potatoes and gravy, candied yams, green been casserole, corn, rolls, stuffing and cranberry salad.  Enough food for an army.

After all hustle and timing was executed to get things done at the same time… I put the yams in the oven with the marshmallows on top to brown and waited.  …and waited.   … and waited.  Finally I thought they were almost ready and my boyfriend went to carve the turkey… it was not fully cooked.  We then discovered the oven was not heating up fully.  So we microwaved the turkey to finish cooking what we were going to eat and put the bird back in the oven.

All in all the turkey probably took twice as long to fully cook. By the time it was done I was coughing and starting to feel feverish.  So after my daughter went home I took some medicine and sat down finally.  Since then all I have done is cough and sleep.  We did have the maintenance crew look at the oven.  The element was broken and it took maybe 5 minutes to fix.  Not that we will need the oven anytime soon with all the leftovers we have now.  But we were together, could laugh about the troubles of the day and had a delicious meal still.

So to get where I need to go with this, instead of just babbling about the day…. my happy moment was being together with family.  I was grateful to have a back-up to finish cooking the turkey in the microwave.  Can’t imagine what we would have done without that.

Day 332

I slept.  I slept a lot.  And I was very grateful to be able to sleep most of the day away.  I did stay awake long enough to watch a movie with my boyfriend… we watched the suspense drama Split with James McAvoy.  It was really very good I thought and I was happy to stay awake long enough to watch it.

I can finally say I am actually hungry again… yesterday all I ate was a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.  So I am going to go take a stab at some leftovers for lunch.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 327

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

Here in the US it was Thanksgiving today… well for most people it was.  My boyfriend works retail and was at work all day and my daughter spent the day with her boyfriend and his family so we are gathering for a feast on Monday when we are all able to be here. But in the spirit of Thanksgiving I reached out to a few of my friends I am truly grateful for and wished them a happy day and told them how much they mean to me.  I am grateful for my friends.

Now the happy part of the day is a little harder.  To be quite honest I was harboring a little jealousy of my daughter’s boyfriend for getting to be with her today.  First holiday with a real serious relationship and mom here is dealing with it as best as I can.  So I tried to recapture her youth and watched some kids movies today after the Macy’s parade was over.  But then I got a surprise.

I had sent off a letter last week (I think… or the week before) and the friend I sent it to called me today.  She used to live across the street from me growing up as kids and now she is halfway across the country.  It was so good to hear her voice though.  It had been far too long!  That phone call made me happy.

The lights are off, some music playing low.  My boyfriend has been asleep at least 3 hours now and I should try to do the same soon.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Day 76 – 100 Days of Happiness

I have a habit of being late… but this one was not my fault!  Today was our late Thanksgiving dinner.  My daughter and boyfriend both worked on Thursday so we planned dinner today after my daughter was off work.

I always stress about getting things done at the same time or at least close so nothing gets cold, and I think i pulled it off pretty well.  My daughter ended up working more than an hour later than expected so we were in a holding pattern for a while, but nothing burned and it all got cooked close to the same time.

It was good to have family around the table and stories and laughter.  I am very thankful they are in my life and accept me and all my flaws.  I love them all.

Now the dishwasher has been run once.  There will be another load of dishes in the morning and it will be all cleaned up.  We even had enough room in the refrigerator for all the left overs. I can’t wait for turkey sandwiches tomorrow!  Yummy!

100 Days of Happiness – Thanksgiving

I once more am putting together two days posts, but they are both regarding Thanksgiving so I guess it works that they are together.

Day 71 – This is the day I tested my brain power.  Used that mental list of what is normal to have on Thanksgiving and hit the store to buy a bird and the fixings.  Thankfully my boyfriend gets a discount where he works and we found a lot of what we needed on sale.  I have had some years where we shopped the wrong store or the wrong time and didn’t hit much for sales.  But since we are not having our family dinner until Monday we could wait until the “last-minute sales” and did really good.  Trying to subtract the extras off the receipt I add up the whole meal to only run about $45 to 50 to feed 4 and have leftovers … I love bargain shopping!!

Day 72 – Today was a very quiet holiday for me with my boyfriend and daughter both working.  But I had a nice day reading and telling my friends and family that I loved them and was thankful they are a part of my life.  Whether in a text message or email I connected with those I care about today and any day I can do that makes me happy.

I hope all of you that celebrated Thanksgiving today had a good day and took a moment to reflect on what you are thankful for.  And anyone planning on shopping in the craziness that is Black Friday sales finds great deals and safely returns home with them. Having worked 20 years in retail I have certainly seen some crazy things happen on Black Friday… but that is a story or two for another time.