Please Wait Until Next Week To Have Your Breakdown

“Well if that will work for you I will pencil you in for a tentative spot next Wednesday at ten o’clock.  And you will be on my wait list in case we have a cancellation before that.  Take it easy Julie.”  The receptionist hung up the phone and entered something into her computer.  After she was done with that she picked the phone up again to ring Dr. Tenner’s office.  “Yes Ken, I just got off the phone with Julie Miller and she was having a little trouble today.  She said if you had any time to call today, she would appreciate it.  Okay, she is down for next Wednesday unless we get a cancellation.   Okay, thank you.”

The receptionist turned to the woman seated beside her and said, “I feel so bad when someone calls in and needs help right away and we have to make them wait a week for an appointment.  It just doesn’t seem right.”

“If there wasn’t a shortage on therapists we wouldn’t have as bad of a problem.  It is basic supply and demand.  And with the corona virus, the economy and the state of world affairs we are just over booked.  It does feel wrong… but what can we do.  There are only so many hours in a day.”

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – tentative

Hang On Tight

She drove through town in a haphazard fashion. Her life was so complicated and she was just trying to get to a place of peace, anyplace without the headaches of her life. She found herself at a local park and pulled into a parking space by the creek.

She stood on the bridge and breathed deep the crisp fall air. Her relationship was in tatters, her Mom was sick and work had become an exercise in trying to control her anxieties.

Tomorrow she was seeing a new therapist. It had to help… she was at the end of her rope.


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – haphazard

Happy and Grateful – Day 320

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

There was a cold wind blowing the leaves off the trees today.  It definitely felt like a fall day.  And we even had a little sun off and on too.  It was still bearable enough to walk to my appointment to see my therapist.  And I was glad to see him today…. it was another day where I felt my depression.  I have been fighting to “be happy” and I am just too tired to do it the last couple of days.  So in light of that my happiness was the opportunity to talk to my doctor about it.

I needed a refill on my prescription today and did not feel at all like going across town to get them.  I texted my boyfriend to see if on his way home he could stop and pick them up.  I was grateful he was able to do that for me so I was able to take my dose as soon as he got home after work.

I am going to curl up with some hot chocolate and watch a movie until I drift off.  I hope you remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day.

Happy and Grateful – Day 306

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

Sorry I am once again late in posting.  Last night the fatigue got the best of me and hit me before I could even post my word prompt poem.  But I am rested and refreshed and as awake as I will get.  I have had my coffee and gone through my email for the day… now to take care of some WordPress business.

Yesterday was the end of several days of activity.  It was a busy day in itself.  I had a doctor’s appointment, Dad had one and I dropped off some soup for my daughter.  I was especially grateful to have my appointment with my therapist… it is a difficult week with my Mom’s birthday and the anniversary of my ex-husband’s death.  Visiting with my daughter though I feel better because she will not be alone on Saturday when her dad died,  She will be spending time with her boyfriend.  I know she misses her Dad terribly and unfortunately there is nothing I can do to take away that pain.

My happy moment was a little errand I ran for myself.  I went to Hobby Lobby to look for embossing folders.  I was sad to see there were none in stock that I wanted. but I still managed to find a few things on sale but kept my total under $10.  I love shopping a good sale!

Well I have things to do around the house so I need to put the laptop down.  I hope you find your happiness and feel your gratitude today.  Have a wonderful day/night!

Happy and Grateful – Day 166

June brings warmer weather and the start of summer.  Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too.  I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year.  Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog.  There is always something good to find in each day.

Today was (hopefully) the last really hot day for a while.  It is supposed to drop about ten degree tomorrow.  There are some storms going through now so the weather is changing somewhat.

This was another day of anxiety.  I am tired of being so keyed up and no sign of relaxing soon.  But I do have my anti-anxiety meds… I just hate to have to rely on them, but breathing exercises only get me so far.  I did have the relief of seeing my therapist this week.  We talked about my possible outcomes and options I had.  He is a supporter of my Happy and Grateful posts.  A healthy way to look at my day by pulling forth the good in it.  I am grateful I was able to see him after he was off on vacation last week.

The rest of the day was pretty quiet.  I am working on a letter to a friend of mine and I did some more writing on that…it is always good to write in any form.  I also got a phone call from another friend who I had sent a card to.  We talked for quite a while and she was happy to get my card.  That made me happy too.

What made you happy and grateful today?

Happy and Grateful – Day 124

May has arrived and I hope it brings lots of Spring cheer with it.  I am in my fifth month now of taking time to acknowledge the things that make me happy and grateful every day… almost half way to my goal of a full year.  If you want to join in on this challenge please add your thoughts in the comments or start your own blog.  There is a lot to be happy and grateful for!

It was another beautiful day today.  And the best part for me was getting to see my therapist again – he was back from vacation!  We had a lot to talk about and he once again tried to persuade me to get to an Al-Anon meeting… and tonight I did.

It was nice to work on my program tonight and try to refocus on me instead of stewing on my problems, or those things I perceive as problems.  I saw a couple of familiar faces and several new ones.  It always is good once I get past those doors… it is just trouble to get the time and energy to get there.

So my happy has to go to the return of my doctor.  And as always I am grateful for the love and comfort I feel inside the walls of any meeting I have attended in the area.  It really is an amazing fellowship.

Happy and Grateful – Day 96

We have reached the month of April and I am still on course to post daily with my happiness and gratitude I have found.  Please join in if you feel like doing this too by sharing in the comments or on your own blog.  There is so much to be happy and grateful for.

We had sunshine almost all day today and it was fantastic!  I wish I could say that was all I needed to make my mood positive for the day but with depression and anxiety it takes a little more. BUT it is a wonderful start!

Today was my weekly visit with my therapist and that was good.  I am having some trouble with my boyfriend and a friend from my past that keeps filling my head so I needed to talk.  He doesn’t take my insurance and knows I am without income but he still seems me for a VERY small fee each week… I would be lost without him.

My boyfriend and I took our paperwork into the landlord for our new lease that is coming up this summer.  They start the paperwork early to make sure it is all there when it is time to renew.  I really like it here and know we could not get a better deal anywhere in town.

So I am happy for the sun and the fact the paperwork is done for this year.  I am, as always, grateful for my doctor.  Now maybe tomorrow’s second day of sunshine will boost my mood a little more.  Here’s hoping!

Happy and Grateful – Day 12

I have undertaken a challenge this year.  I am trying to find the good in every day by writing about happiness and gratitude that I feel.  No matter how small there is always something to bring a smile or make you grateful, if just for a moment.  Follow along with me as I dig deep as necessary and find the peace of the day.  Join in if you are feeling happy and grateful too – in the comments or on your own blog.  Let’s find some fun!

This was a day to try to mend a bit.  I made an error and had run out of scheduled appointments with my therapist last week… I really missed being able to talk to him.  So it was nice to get back to the routine of that weekly appointment.  He has been a good doctor for me to share anything and everything with.  He of course does not have any answers for me, but helps me find my own.

It is nice to know that I can weekly talk about those concerns I have and help get rid of some of the anxiety and depression I face.  I am happy this doctor is such a good “fit” and I am back on his schedule… happy and grateful.