Every Single Day

I sit in silence and

I try to get my mind off you

But this is just like

Any other ordinary day

Your memories haunt me

I still feel your touch

I still smell your cologne

I still taste your lips

I am torn between

Wanting to remember everything

And wiping the slate clean

But today is just like yesterday

You consume my thoughts

And I wonder if someday

We might meet again


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – ordinary https://fivedotoh.com/2020/06/14/fowc-with-fandango-ordinary/

Photo by Nataliya Vaitkevich from Pexels

No Other Choice

Contemplate…

Think…

Review…

Take this time

And gives things

A little bit of thought

We need our wits about us

During this stressful time

Be kind to each other

And especially to yourself

For we will make it through this

My heart says we have to

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – contemplate

Searching

I close my eyes

And lose myself

In random thoughts

Trying to tame

My poetic mind

And grasp some

Inspiration to write

From love to loss

From happy to sad

I have often

Written them all

But tonight’s thoughts

Are scattered and few

My muse is silent

And the words hidden

Leaving me with

A blank paper

And pen useless

If only for tonight

And tomorrow

I will once again search

For the words

I long to write

 

Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – poetic

Inner Voices

“you’re not good enough”
“you ruined it”
“no one cares about you.”
“you’re so pathetic”
all the noise in my head
tries to knock me down
make me feel at fault
but I still look for a way
to silence the shouts
and let the whispers be heard
“you did great”
”you are loved by many”
“you are strong”
“you are beautiful”

Happy and Grateful – Day 46

This is February and I am well on my way to attaining a goal I set for myself.  I am trying to post every day with happiness and gratitude that I have encountered that day.  There is always something no matter how small it may seem that we can be grateful for and even just a shared smile can make you happy if only for a moment.  Please try to find those moments for yourself too…  if you’re up to it I would love if you would share them too in the comments or your own blog.  Being aware can really turn a day around!

Ever have a day when you felt just very deep in thought most of the day?  That is kind of where I have been today.  Thinking of my friend and his birthday – truly wishing him to have a good day as he does really need one.  Thinking about finances as my car needs work again.  And thinking about my future and where I am headed.  Just lots of thoughts that almost make me sad.  (and knowing I forgot my morning meds it doesn’t surprise me there is sadness there)

But it was another nice day out full of sunshine.  I took my Dad to his weekly outing to meet with his friends for coffee…that feels like my good deed for the day.  I have a home to be in and music to listen to while I write.  I have a lot to be grateful for and that should be enough to make me happy tonight.  Or at least as close to happy as I can get with so much on my mind.