She was so alone. She was married to her high school sweetheart, but after 20 years had passed, she had begun to feel like a piece of unused furniture in the corner. He just didn’t seem to want her anymore and had begun to tell her so in small ways. Little jabs he would say, especially after a drink or two, that broke her down. She began to blame herself and felt more and more withdrawn.
One day she was taking a walk for some peace of mind – nature seemed to be the only thing to set her mind at ease. As usual she had her MP3 player with her to listen to as she walked on. The music was set to shuffle but this playlist that had taken place was about to open up her eyes. She heard a song called “Words” by Train that told her not to listen to what is said and it was followed by Skillet’s song “It’s Not Me, It’s You” and she had an epiphany.
She suddenly felt a weight lift off her shoulders as the truth came out through songs. She didn’t have to believe what he said, they were just words. And it was not her fault. It was not her; it was him. Her mind was finally clear to the answers. The man she had married was gone. The shell of a man that took his place was growing old and bitter fueled by large amounts of alcohol. Although it hurt, she had to understand that being on her own was better than being dragged down daily.
She packed her bags and began a new life of hope.
Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – epiphany
They sat together on the park bench. He was reading a newspaper and she was feeding the pigeons. They had done this for nearly 40 years. The man closed his paper and asked his wife, “Do you want to take a walk through the park today? It is a beautiful day out.”
She threw more of the breadcrumbs at the growing circle of birds and said, “But I still have bread for the birds, and you haven’t finished reading the paper yet.”
“Come on Doris, we haven’t been down those paths in years.” He nudged her arm a little, “I am tired of the same old thing.”
“I don’t see why you are stirring up a hornet’s nest, but I will give it a try.” She slowly stood and took his hand. No more than 5 yards down the path a bicycle came up on the couple from behind and could not turn fast enough. The rider crashed into Doris and she went down on the ground. Her husband, taken by surprise stumbled and fell too.
As the EMT’s were loading Doris in the ambulance for a broken leg, she turned towards the stretcher her husband was on and said, “Next time don’t mess with our routine Christopher. Remember, if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.”
Written for Fandango’s February Expressions (FFE) #3
The way the stars shine
They dazzle my eyes
The sound of the water flow
Lulls me into peace
The sliver of a moon
Sets a perfect mood
Your hand in mine
You pull me into your arms
And softly kiss me
You leave me astonished
By your gentle passion
And I feel this is the start
Of something once in a lifetime
His hand in mine we walk in the park. It is a warm evening just nearing dusk. The trees sway in a gentle breeze. We stop by a large oak tree and he leans towards me and kisses me softly. Taking his hand he tenderly caresses my cheek and kisses me again. This time he lingers and I feel his warm breath against my skin.
I take a deep breath and say we should continue our walk. He whispers, “Just so we can get some where more private.”
Taking a walk
I glance above,
At the blue sky,
And wonder what
The skies look like
Where you are.
Could it be possible
We are both enjoying
A walk in the sunshine,
At the same time,
Feeling the same warmth
Radiating down on us;
Connecting us for a moment
On an mystical plane,
Together once again?
The month of October is upon us. Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even. The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter. And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month. Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it. I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day. Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.
A nice and quiet day today. I took a walk in the cool air to my weekly doctor’s appointment and was happy to be out in the autumn air for a little while. It is a path behind the parking lot to the back side of the clinic so not much nature to see, but just breathing in the fresh air was good.
Today’s gratitude comes in a simple form. Nothing more than a simple text from a friend to ask how I was doing, but it gave me a moment of worth and made me feel remembered.
My computer is due to perform updates so I have to get this posted. Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude. Have a good night/day!
July brings fireworks, picnics, pools and air conditioning. It is a time for those of us in the USA to celebrate our “birthday” and a personal time for me to celebrate life. It is hot and humid days and thunderstorms cooked up at night. I am continuing my challenge to find happiness and gratitude in every day. Join along in the comments or on your own blog. There is always good in every day.
Today I wanted to run away… and in a small way I did.
I had to take my Dad to the eye doctor and when we stepped back out into the 90°F weather, started the car and cranked on the A/C… there was nothing! No fans, no cold, no hot, nothing. My boyfriends car is out of commission, so I can’t have my car in the shop for a repair right now. I was devastated. After I dropped off my Dad I “ran away” to the park.
I got out and pounded the pavement to the flower display took my camera out and started looking for peace and beauty. Halfway through my pictures I realized my camera had low batteries and was taking very shaky pictures, so I switched to my phone. I walked a little further to the other small garden area and took some more pictures before I melted onto the nearest bench.
I cut through a couple of short cuts and made it back to my car drenched in sweat. Put the key in the ignition and crossed my fingers. It worked! The air conditioner came back on. So I am a little confused on what my car is actually doing. But for now it works. And for that I am grateful.
The internet was then out when I returned home (which is why my Monochrome Monday – From The Back post was late going up) so I did a little photo work. I was happy, even in the heat, to see the flowers today and “pound out” the frustration with a short walk. The day was not a total loss. I got to see this…
June brings warmer weather and the start of summer. Hopefully it brings many ideas from my muse too. I continue to write for my challenge to find the things that make me happy and grateful each day this year. Please feel free to join me in this challenge with comments about your happiness and gratitude or start your own blog. There is always something good to find in each day.
Today has been just kind of going through the motions. I am fatigued beyond belief, but can’t sleep for any length of time. I feel my muse is slipping away, my last couple of poems have been ok, but I feel they are lacking that creative spark. I am on edge with all the fireworks going off. Just getting by as best as I can.
It was a fairly nice day that ended with some rain again. I really wish I had the time and energy to get to a park and recharge myself a little. I did see my therapist today which meant a short walk to the clinic… it was better than no walk at all and the fresh air felt good, I am grateful for that.
My daughter and I had a little Facebook chat and she said something that did bring a smile to my face, that made me happy. Now I think I will have a late night snack (so I can feel bad about my weight) and try to sleep soon. Really just want to crawl in a hole… maybe this new dosage on my anti-depressant will help me out of this funk. I can hope, at least I still have some hope.