Mumbles… numbers and things

Good evening everyone.  I sit here after midnight trying to gather my thoughts into some kind of coherent writing.  I was told the other day from WordPress that I hit a milestone.  I have now had over 1000 posts now.  Does not seem possible, but then again with doing both a daily happy and grateful post and the daily prompts all of last year that was well over 700 alone.  So I am feeling somewhat prolific.  I would like to say they were all wonderful posts, but I am my own worst critic.  Some of the posts I would like to sort through, but I am afraid half of them would be deleted then.

So I guess this is a kind of thank you.  Thanks for the views and the likes on all my 1000… most of all thanks for the follows.  I still wonder what I write that is good enough to want to follow… a lot of it is just getting my thoughts and demons out.  I am glad you have come along for the ride.  Now I guess I try to hit another 1000 posts.

How is the weather where you are?  We are getting ready for an ice/snow storm to hit just in time for the morning commute tomorrow (well technically today since it is after midnight) and of course both my daughter and my boyfriend will have to drive through it.  I do have to go out but it is only a couple blocks away so I am not too worried about my drive time… I am already anxious about the two of them driving in it though.

I have lived my whole life in Iowa, you would think I would be used to these little storm warnings, but they really bother me any more.  And driving in snow and ice at night… forget it!  I have turned into a ‘fraidy cat and I am not afraid to admit it!

I should stop rambling for the night.  Get some rest so I can check in on my daughter in the morning and make sure it was a safe trip to work for her.  Then wait to get a text from my boyfriend that he has arrived at work ok as well.  I hope you all have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Days 336 & 337

One of my favorite months is upon us. I love the wonder of the holidays.  How it can light up young and old alike.  The weather is (usually) starting to change the world white and frosty.  And the promise of a new year is just around the corner.  This is the final month of my attempt to find the things that make me happy and grateful every day for a year… I have mixed emotions that it will be ending.  Please join me these last few days and post your happiness and gratitude in the comments or on your own blog.  There is always some good in the day no matter how small.

Here I am playing catch up once again.  It got tired out very fast last night and I was asleep before I knew it.  But it was the first day “after” my cold where I did not nap at all and I went out to get my Dad dinner.  I did a quick drop off in case the germs were still trying to leave me and find their next victim.  But just that little bit of activity really wore me out.  I was grateful to have the energy to go out though.

It was such a little thing but getting a nice hot shower and getting dressed (aside from the standard cold wardrobe of sweats and a t-shirt) actually was the happy point of the day.  It was like I felt human again… insert laughter here.

Today was another pretty good day.  Still not 100% but I had a little bit more energy, a little less coughing.  What really bothers me is that all the while I have been sick, we have had unseasonably warm weather.  Now as I am starting to get back to “normal” we will see temps falling starting tomorrow.  Oh well, it is December after all.

Today I did a little bit more.  Loaded the dishwasher (that is a lot of bending up and down) and took a quick trip to the store for three things my Dad needed.  It was pretty much in and out but I could tell I had more going on today.  I was grateful that errand is done now so tomorrow is currently free.

I was happy to return home to my comfy recliner and watch a movie with my boyfriend.  It was not an Academy Award winner, but it wasn’t a total waste of time either.  Now he has headed off to sleep and I fumble with words to make this readable.  I am not completely free of the “fog” from the cold either.  And let me tell you the word prompt today really threw me… in what I looked up it appears to be a saying from the UK.  I know I had never heard of it before.

Anyway… it is late and the eyelids are getting heavy.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  I hope you have a wonderful night/day!

Under Pressure

The atmospheric pressure

Was finally high today

Which brought the sun out

And left the pain at bay

The rain and clouds

Had really brought me down

The last few days

I’ve been wearing a frown

But the change in weather

Might be just what I need

To turn my mood around

And leave my happiness freed

So the next time the clouds come

And I start to feel blue

I will just wait patiently

For the next sunny day anew

Happy and Grateful – Day 320

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

There was a cold wind blowing the leaves off the trees today.  It definitely felt like a fall day.  And we even had a little sun off and on too.  It was still bearable enough to walk to my appointment to see my therapist.  And I was glad to see him today…. it was another day where I felt my depression.  I have been fighting to “be happy” and I am just too tired to do it the last couple of days.  So in light of that my happiness was the opportunity to talk to my doctor about it.

I needed a refill on my prescription today and did not feel at all like going across town to get them.  I texted my boyfriend to see if on his way home he could stop and pick them up.  I was grateful he was able to do that for me so I was able to take my dose as soon as he got home after work.

I am going to curl up with some hot chocolate and watch a movie until I drift off.  I hope you remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day.

Happy and Grateful – Day 315

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

It was a little warmer today but we still were stuck in the clouds.  Tonight there is a cold rain.  I am still fighting my depression.  Tried to write some of it out this afternoon and that helped some.  The damp air is not helping my fibro but this too shall pass.

I had a pretty quiet afternoon but I did play some music to try to help me out of my mood.  I listened to some music online and I am grateful I have access to so much music.  It doesn’t cure anything but it can soothe a troubled mind some.

My happiness from the day came from having my cat cuddle with me today.  It seems more often now she “knows” when I am feeling down and will jump in my lap to sleep and purr.  I still miss my other cat terribly on days like this.  He was my shadow and was always there for me, but the princess is learning.

I need to try to make this an early night, plans for tomorrow morning.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day!

Happy and Grateful – Day 313

November brings a chill in the air and the start of the holiday gatherings of family and friends.  I can’t believe I am down to the last two month of my challenge to find happiness and feel gratitude every day.  I hope you join with me in the comments or your own blog in this challenge.  No matter how small there is always a little good in even the worst day.

It was a cold day today.  Right around the freezing point most of the day with a cold wind blowing.  A good day to stay inside.  And that is what I did for most of the day.  I fought fatigue a good portion of the day and succumbed to two naps.  But I was grateful to have a day with not much planned where I could take the naps.

I was feeling a little better than I was last night, but still missing my friend.  It is getting close to the holidays and at one time he was going to be here for the holidays, but that changed and I wish I could see him again.  I worry I never will see him in person again.  As he will not be coming back here and I don’t have the money or energy to travel.  I am glad we still keep in touch somewhat through phone and texts.

Tonight’s happy moment … I have a hard time with this one tonight.  I am going to go with one I don’t know if I have used before or not.  With the upcoming winter they are talking about the homeless and the coming cold…. I am happy to have a roof over my head and I can afford the heat to stay warm.  Having known someone who was homeless for a while I know circumstances can come up and it all can vanish too easily.

Now I am going to finish watching the end of the musical Chicago and hope to get to sleep soon after.  Please remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a wonderful night/day.

Happy and Grateful – Day 296

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

Fall is really showing her true colors today.  It was windy and cooler today.  Leaves were flying everywhere.  We had to go out in the blustery weather as our microwave reached its demise.  We were able to find a new one at a reasonable price.  I was grateful it didn’t cost us too much.

My happy moment is harder to come by.  Been hurting a little more with the drop in temperatures and no sun again today brings my mood down.  But when we were out getting our new microwave I did see someone I had worked with and miss seeing all the time.  It made me happy to see her again.

Now to post this before I fall asleep… the errands and weather has taken it out of me.  Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a great night/day!

 

(oops…. I did fall asleep first.  Sorry, this is a little late!)

Happy and Grateful – Day 293

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

It was almost too warm today… but it sounds like that will not be a problem again soon.  We are headed for a drop in temperatures after rain tomorrow.  So it is a good thing I got my time by my window with the fresh air today.  I am grateful for the time to hear the birds singing again.  The language on the playground however after school… that was a whole different feeling it gave me.  About sent shivers down my spine.

I did a little tidying up the apartment, until my back told me I had done enough.  Then my daughter came over to wash some laundry and watch the soap.  We ordered some pizza and shared a nice dinner together.  She had to leave pretty early as she has to open at her coffee shop in the early morning.  But it always makes me happy to see her.

Tonight is kind of rough for me… just feel a little out of sorts.  But being able to look back and find the good in the day helps.  I need to take my night meds and try to sleep soon.  Maybe read a few more posts before I get too tired.  Thank you to all who take the time to read these.  I wonder how the numbers really play out.  But I still feel a little connection has been made and that is something to be happy and grateful about.

Remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day.

Happy and Grateful – Day 292

The month of October is upon us.  Fall is in full swing with the leaves gathering on the lawn… maybe a pile or two to run through even.  The evenings are getting dark earlier as the days grow shorter.  And a few of us look forward to a good scare with Halloween coming this month.  Everyday has at least some small portion of good in it.  I am looking for that good with this challenge to find my happiness and gratitude every day.  Join in with the challenge by commenting or writing your own blog… let’s find some goodness today.

Today was a pretty good day.  Weather was nice and I was able to walk to my weekly doctor’s appointment.  Taking a little bit of time to see the beauty of the trees I pass by on my way across the apartment complex.  The fall colors are really starting to pop.  I am hoping to make it to the park in the next week maybe to take some pictures before it is too late.

My doctor’s appointment went well.  It is always good to see my therapist.  I am having a little trouble with the morning appointment times.  I made it to alarm #4 before I started to really wake up.  I think I only have one more morning appointment left.  I find it so frustrating that I have trouble sleeping but then once I am asleep I have trouble waking up.  But I made it there and got to see the doctor and that made me happy.

Tonight was pretty quiet.  My boyfriend and I watched a little TV and had a nice dinner.  I am always grateful that my boyfriend likes to cook and will do so almost every night.  By the time dinner comes around I am often either tired or hurting.

Speaking of tired, it is time to rest my eyes.  I hope you remember to find your happiness and feel your gratitude.  Have a good night/day!