Daddy

Two years ago today

I said that I loved him

Something I didn’t say enough

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Two years ago today

We saw him decline overnight

Not realizing how far

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Two years ago today

We said goodbye

Not knowing it was the last

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Two years ago today

I saw his last breath

And my heart shattered

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I remember the service

As something surreal

So many memories

So many people

But mostly

I was missing him


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – service

(Photo of flowers at my Dad’s memorial service)

Broken

I see the china doll

No one wants to hold

Her face is cracked

Her paint is old and worn

The china doll is broken

Broken just like me

No one wants to

Be with the broken

Or someone like

This broken hearted me

Broken by the love

Your pulled away from me

And left alone with sorrow

That I so strongly feel

So I pick up the doll

With tenderness and compassion

And whisper we may be broken

But we still know how to care


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – broken

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Shared

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She sat at the window

Lost in her thoughts

Dreaming of him

And their time together

Her reverie was blissful

Like the kisses they shared

But soon she was left to wonder

Why he had said goodbye

She loses herself often

In these thoughts of yesterday

But always turns back to

The lonely truth of today

And hopes beyond hope

They will find the way back

To the dreams they once shared

And the passion that fueled them


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – reverie

Fandango’s Flashback Friday – January 22

This weeks FFF goes back to 2017 when I wrote this poem for the word prompt of privacy…

What’s Inside

Can I get a little privacy

A little time to myself

Where I’m not

Girlfriend, mother, daughter,

Sister, or even friend…

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A time when I can just be me

And not trying to impress someone

Or take care of another

A time when I put myself first

Not second, third or further down the line

*

Maybe it is not privacy I need

Maybe it is a change in me I need

A determination to be put first

A strength not to be walked on

A confidence that I matter

*

…maybe it is just not in me

Tired Of Dieting

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Nourish my heart

Feed me your love

Let me quench this thirst

For someone who cares

I’ve starved for years

With an unanswered hunger

Famished of the basic needs

Of comforting words from another

It is a case of simple survival

Please feed me your love


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – nourish

Tucked In Good

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I used to tuck her in

When it was night

And I’d read to her

Out of Dr. Seuss.

If she was sick

I’d softly sing,

“You are my sunshine.”

But no matter what,

Healthy or sick,

I would make sure

She was snug in bed

By asking one question.

Are you as snug as a bug in a rug?

It was something

My folks used to ask me.

Now as she is marred,

I start to wonder

Will she pass on the tradition?

Are my grandbabies

Going to be

As snug as a bug in a rug too?


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – snug

Everything To Me

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You speak harshly

Instead of a caring voice

Like you are my boss

Still

You are everything to me

A bond that I can never sever

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You treat me like a stranger

Instead of your blood

Like I am a burden in your life

Still

You are everything to me

A place in my heart forever

**

You are taking steps away

Instead of back to me

Like your independence is complete

Still

You are everything to me

A place here to come home to always


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – instead

Oh My

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To my amusement

You made me laugh

And friendship did arrive

To my delight

You kissed my cheek

And romance began to bloom

To my pleasure

You filled my desires

And love entered my heart

To my surprise

You loved me too

And marriage swept us up

To my amazement

You began to drink

And distrust became the norm

To my dismay

You left our home

And sadness filled my heart

To my disappointment

You filed for divorce

And our marriage was erased

To my shock

You drank more

And death took you away


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – delight

Am I

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My life has been

A series of disappointments

Many at my own hand

As a kid I was shy

And just got by in school

I never had the courage

To stand up for myself

I thought I was lucky in love

But alcoholism ruined

My happily ever after

My latest blunder

Involves a large dish of ice cream

I can’t lose this weight

If I keep stress eating

So often I see myself

As the problem in the equation

Sometimes I just wonder

Am I worth the space I take up


Written for Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (FOWC) – series

Survival Coins (#FFFC)

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Down to a handful of change

He begins to count

Just enough for bread

And a jar of peanut butter

This has to last him a full week

It’s all he will eat

This is a splurge

Last week he lived

On ramen alone

He can’t recall

When he had vegetables

Fruit would be

A precious dessert

But the heat is still on

and the water still flows

His small apartment is dark

But a place to call home

One more unemployment check

More doors closed in his face

He thinks he might survive

At least until Spring

After that who knows


Written for Fandango’s Flash Fiction Challenge (FFFC) #99